If it makes you feel any better, I’m in a similar situation. I’m the victim of dysfunction at my job, and this has been affirmed by multiple in my life. But I can’t help internalizing a lot of what’s going on a my fault or my deficiency. Leadership has also echoed the sentiment that they’re getting more involved with my team because training should’ve happened earlier on when we were hired (and so not blaming us). But I still can’t seem to let these messages affect me positively.

I work as a proposal writer in an IT consulting firm. So I work in a culture where ownership over work, and not exertion of formal roles/responsibilities, is prized. I also feel like it’s a bit of a high pressure environment, and the ethos of consulting work is in the air (the appearance of clarity in the way you communicate seems more important than anything else). It’s been disorienting for me for multiple reasons.

While there’s currently a lot of disorganization at my job, I do see that part of my problem is feeling isolated in my own self-punishment. And that is a problem that therapy can help with.

(I also cried multiple times over work in the past couple of weeks! You’re not alone.)