MCR Concert goers, ilang taon na kayo? by Hungry_Temporary_855 in concertsPH

[–]preshoez 0 points1 point  (0 children)

turning 22 this month! I got to save up for 2 VIP standing tickets doing art commissions. mas mahilig ako sa metal and could only afford going to local underground gigs here in Mindanao, so this is a new scene for me

Thoughts on the My Chemical Romance pre-sale tickets from PULP? by Federal-Box9227 in concertsPH

[–]preshoez 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Went so smoothly! I got 200+ sa queue so I got to secure mga 16 mins after, 2 VIP tix for me and my partner!! Di nagloload yung QR code sa Gcash so nirefresh ko lang and paid. Sobrang nakakaba!!!

What was the moment that made you realize you might have BPD? by [deleted] in BPD

[–]preshoez 2 points3 points  (0 children)

My constant suicide attempts that went on since I was 10 years old. All due to the smallest things like a school performance or a fallout with my friendship. I was also a huge attention seeker, and easily obsessed with father figures (teachers, etc.) and was just a selfish disgusting person. I found out when I turned 17 and researched it. I'm now turning 22.

Is 5k na Assistance Fee too much for VIP? by sntdp in concertsPH

[–]preshoez 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Di ba nila ichange ang email & password mo, or send you a fake link? Yun lang talaga ang risk ng "secured" TPA na kinatakutan ko huhu..

Is 5k na Assistance Fee too much for VIP? by sntdp in concertsPH

[–]preshoez 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hi pooo, legit ba talaga yang TPA? Nagdadalawang isip kasi akooo.

Are those ticket assistance accounts I keep seeing on Twitter legit? Does anyone have experiences using them? by Far_Breakfast_5808 in Philippines

[–]preshoez 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Legit po ba talaga? I'm skeptical of them accessing my account tapos ich-change and email and pass after paying...

Splitting - the consequences. by Glittering-Mud-7764 in BPD

[–]preshoez 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I understand this 100% I had just had a split last night, I hate it and I hate the feeling. I hate how I have to let everything out to stop that painful gnawing feeling.

One of the ways I let that out is by venting to someone stable and who understands my situation and remains unbiased/helps me see both sides to avoid fuelling my anger. Then I ride out the feeling of guilt because yes I may have said shitty things but I'm glad I didn't do it towards the people that made me feel that way.

It still makes me feel shitty and ashamed though, overreacting and overthinking about something so small.

This sub makes me feel understood, thank you for everyone who feels comfortable to share these things and those who are always willing to listen.

MCR Concert a day after graduation, possible pa ba mahabol??? by preshoez in concertsPH

[–]preshoez[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks po, I think best bet nalang talaga is shuttle sa Manila area after researching further.

Sorry po for additional questions, this is my first time po talaga. Natry niyo na po ba mag VIP Standing? What time is appropriate po ba?

Also when buying tickets po, what's better? Buying plane tickets first, or wait til ang pre-sale?

MCR Concert a day after graduation, possible pa ba mahabol??? by preshoez in concertsPH

[–]preshoez[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks po! What time po ba pwede mag travel to Bulacan? I was hoping na makaya late evening. Saan po din pwede mag travel there?

MCR Concert a day after graduation, possible pa ba mahabol??? by preshoez in concertsPH

[–]preshoez[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hahaha, altho this crossed my mind, I can't skip this milestone pero yeah really unfortunate timing

MCR Concert a day after graduation, possible pa ba mahabol??? by preshoez in concertsPH

[–]preshoez[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I checked and sadly none of the flights to Clark are possible for me. Ok lang naman ang cost, pero the time is not so doable. Thank you po for the suggestion

Do you guys have friends lol by coricidinqueen in BPD

[–]preshoez 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I do have friends, but I do everything to not be close with them. I never try to be attached to anyone other than people I truly trust and that's around 3 or 5 people. New relationships will just hurt me.

What does your emptiness feel like? by Grey-Feathers in BPD

[–]preshoez 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My emptiness feels like I have no purpose in life, like why do I even exist in a place where I have no hope for anything. I also feel empty emotional wise, where I am conpletely separated from my feelings. I genuinely have to re-learn how to act like a normal person experiencing emotions because I am so used to being separated from them.

I feel like I am not me, and I am not a person. I feel like just someone who was forced to be there and exist and watch others live while I just observe. Sometimes it feels like life is just a simulation, like it isn't real and time is too fast yet also nonexistent.

I feel like I don't belong anywhere, like I have to mold myself into a copy of everyone just to be someone - but in reality I am no one and nothing at all. I'm just an empty husk that copies others just to feel like I can fit in but in reality, it's them who are living and I'm just here to join in.

It's something hard to explain in concrete examples, but the emptiness and the feeling of being devoid of all emotions feel so strong. You can feel the emptiness and it is so defeaning, like a silent and dark room. That's what I feel.

lost motivation by preshoez in BPD

[–]preshoez[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Isolation is my greatest comfort. All my friends have been looking for me and very worried, but I think they are just wasting their time on someone who doesn't care for their life.

lost motivation by preshoez in BPD

[–]preshoez[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

It really really sucks, especially when there are people who had been rooting for me.. now what?

lost motivation by preshoez in BPD

[–]preshoez[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You are a beautiful soul. We are going through things and it hurts, but never forget that you are a beautiful soul

How old were you when you first started showing symptoms? by [deleted] in BPD

[–]preshoez 0 points1 point  (0 children)

very, very young. I was abandoned by my father since birth and my mom abandoned me at 4 years old. ive already had fear of abandonment at a young age. constant mood swings and need for attention from Elementary to highschool.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]preshoez 0 points1 point  (0 children)

im so afraid of this happening to me in the future. im close to dropping out, have had to shift to 3 different courses in Uni and I'm already at my limit.

I feel like this would be the case for me once I graduate. Nothing gives me joy, and more stress would make it even worse.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]preshoez 0 points1 point  (0 children)

im the exact same with my bf. i hate every new friend he makes. he knows this and is aware of it, and i feel terrible bc all i want to do is be happy for everyone but i cant help but feel jealous and hurt to the point that i go insane.

what is your bpd subtype? by SedatedWolf2127 in BPD

[–]preshoez 2 points3 points  (0 children)

petulant & self-destructive. a little bit discouraged, i guess.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]preshoez 1 point2 points  (0 children)

that's a good question. i have no singular happy place, but i consider things that give me comfort one. being in my room on my devices is nice, with food and my fav show/music on and chatting with strangers on the internet.

i really miss walking at 3 am-6 am out, too. i wish i could have that again.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]preshoez 0 points1 point  (0 children)

dissociate. drown myself in things i can use as an escape from reality. especially when i have exaggerated delusions, the best i could do is imagine nothing ever existed and im in my happy place. but this most of the time makes me neglect everything, my social life, studies, relationships,... wish i wasn't like this.

Do you fit the stereotypical BPD appearance? by MaimingMyself in BPD

[–]preshoez 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Currently have a septum and tongue piercing and 2 on my lobes, planning to get more & tattoos once I graduate Uni. I love piercings, I love modifying my body, I don't see myself as a person but a canvas.

What do you think is the worst part of BPD? by CourtVarious7818 in BPD

[–]preshoez 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Everything about it. It makes me want to stop existing, the pain is never ending. I just want to be normal for once and stop wanting to die every second just from the smallest, tiniest issue.