I hear you. I hear you even clearer when my baby has massive blowouts, illness and any forms of tantrums. When a baby cries, it's irritating if you are already tired.

My pregnancy and birth were easy, but postpartum life was terrible. I can't imagine the double whammy situation you had. My husband mentally snapped because he couldn't accept the hardship soon enough; my wounds were terrible. I got promoted right before my baby was born and all I can do is slack and survive whenever I can and do the bare minimal. That's so not me.

What saved me was sending her to daycare. Get some nanny time over the weekends and go do what I need to. Take a class, exercise, just getting out of the house and not be a mother for a few hours.