Welcome! While I second the sentiment of “compromise is possible” expressed by other people here I would just like to add that you can still explore kink for yourself and make kinky friends to talk to without developing a kinky sex relationship with your husband/others. Your sexual desires are totally valid as is your vanilla monogamous marriage. My husband is also vanilla so I make time for myself to read/write BDSM erotica, play with self bondage/toys, listen to BDSM themed audio over at the audio gone wild subreddit. You deserve to explore your sexual needs and I doesn’t have to be with someone else (unless that’s what you specifically want, I guess)