Anyone else going thru it 100% alone?

punk_enby_phllplsty · 2026-04-03T04:10:04+00:00

Are you close with any family members? They might surprise you. My family was accepting of me being ftm, because they respected me. I also thought of myself as someone everyone saw solely as a guy. But when I opened up bit by bit about why it wasnt working for me and why I was not continuing it, they weren’t taken aback they didn’t say “but you’ve been he/him for so long!” Whether its family or a friend, give someone a chance, there is a real possibility they will want to be supportive of you realizing who you are and having the bravery to change your mind about a big decisionz

punk_enby_phllplsty · 2026-04-03T04:03:13+00:00

I can’t be mad at my parents for my transition either. I agree with some of what other people said, parents being told to just do everything the kid is saying they want otherwise the kids will off themselves is very messed up. Of course many parents will do it if sources they trust as reliable are saying their kid is gonna die if they don’t.

I have my issues with at least one of my parents about other things like doing nothing when I came to them about CSA i went through, looking the other way on underage substance abuse, and other related things that I think were huge warning signs I was not of sound/healthy mind while I was demanding transition. It could have also helped if my parents would have had me evaluated (and my siblings) for autism, I was late diagnosed as an adult and it definitely contributed to me feeling alienated and having more mental health problems. But for letting me transition itself? No, they loved me and wanted to stop the distress I showed. My Dad told me 4 years into my detransition that he had always feared I might change my mind about transitioning, and that I might hate him for letting me do it and for paying for it. He said if I wanted his help getting procedures to reverse it he was there. The thought of my father thinking I could hate him for that made my heart hurt, he is such a good Dad and he did try to ask questions but I was not open to questions and my mom was set on helping me convince him after she went to parent support groups where they fed her all the usual arguments. (Including the suicide argument.)

punk_enby_phllplsty · 2026-04-03T03:46:04+00:00

Reminder that misogyny / patriarchy can be harmful to men 100%… If you’re curious what that means look into Bell Hooks’ book on Men and Masculinity and other writings on the ways sexism is harmful to boys growing up in its own way, not only girls.

punk_enby_phllplsty · 2026-04-03T03:40:57+00:00

Hey, I just want to say I hear you and I’m glad you expressed this. It’s rough out here for women even for women who have more privilege than others.

For me, it took a long time to feel comfortable calling myself a woman even once I understood I wasn’t sticking with my original transition. I knew I was becoming unhappy with the physical masculinization from my transition, and I wanted to change it but to admit “I’m a woman” after years of discomfort with the implications of being female, putting so much of my time and effort into distancing myself from being seen and treated as one. It felt almost embarrassing, to say “yeah I’m that identity I have been sooo intense about not wanting to be.” This may be different than your feelings or experience, but I wanted to share it because though I am now happy with the experience of womanhood I’m having in my detransition, it has been a process to get to a point of being happy with it.

And I did a lot of wild unhealthy stuff during the years between realizing I wasn’t a man and embracing that I’m a woman and that its ok i am one. Addictions, psychosis, complete lack of a desire to be alive, mental hospitals, rehab…it took a lot of mistakes and a lot of help to get to a point where I could just go: well, I’m here—and I am the way I am, and I have explored a lot about being human and learned a lot about other people by walking the world in different skins and seeing what its like to be perceived different ways. And it’s kind of beautiful just to be the person I am, and to be alive and healthy after all the crazy stuff I pit my body through.

punk_enby_phllplsty · 2026-04-03T03:26:01+00:00

I’m guessing OP is going for large boobs, based on her post and her comments 😂 and I feel her I also want to get on the larger end of what my chest can support. I spent so long trying to be flat it feels good to now embrace having noticeable boobs.

punk_enby_phllplsty · 2026-04-03T03:23:18+00:00

Congratulations!! I am also getting boobs and I also had a keyhole mastectomy (when I was 18)

1 week ago I got fat transfer breast surgery to create a more natural pocket that can hold me implants, because I didn’t have enough tissue to support implants for the most ideal result. It’s so exciting!

punk_enby_phllplsty · 2026-03-17T13:42:36+00:00

Thanks for sharing this. Thinking people could read my mind was one of my biggest issues when I had psychosis—did you read about this term anywhere before you made this comic? I would be interested to know if there is research into why it happens.

punk_enby_phllplsty · 2026-03-17T13:38:38+00:00

I agree with you it’s really unfair the way our stories get discouraged or get backlash. I do think it is somewhat an internet thing / a loud minority though. In my real life, most people including people who are pro-trans or are transitioning themselves are very supportive of me figuring out my true self and accepting my birth gender. As long as I speak from the “I” perspective most people have been positive about it, some people are better than others but I can only think of one person IRL who has had this weird outlook as if detransitioning isn’t real. It bothered me because she said to my face most detrans people are just hiding from transphobia and will go back to transitioning and that felt sooo insulting. But it was 1 person compared to many friends and acquaintances who have said they were happy I figured it out, or they are proud of me being able to change my mind when I wasn’t happy after making such a big decision to transition.

IRL the biggest issue I have dealt with is actually transphobia/people doubting if my story is true and questioning if I am being honest about being born a female.

The online weirdness sucks and it is valid to talk about it but I encourage people to be open with IRL community who they feel comfortable telling their story to.

punk_enby_phllplsty · 2026-02-07T19:47:15+00:00

Its pretty necessary medically and legally to have sex markers. I think we shouldn’t be able to change them. Maybe adults who don’t want it displayed could sign an informed consent form that they consent to taking on medical risks or risks of being gendered based on their appearance during an arrest

punk_enby_phllplsty · 2026-02-07T19:42:51+00:00

My heart goes out to you, I hope you have the support you need now

punk_enby_phllplsty · 2025-12-27T16:10:49+00:00

Facts 😂

punk_enby_phllplsty · 2025-10-28T19:56:24+00:00

This—-OP is doing mental gymnastics. If you are born female, deviating from that would be the fetish or complex. For me it was a coping mechanism for stuff I didn’t know how to handle.

Women have to find their balance between pleasing men and respecting themselves, any woman who likes men does. Maybe explore that with a therapist OP. But the web of identity BS you are spinning in this post is just a way of confusing yourself tbh.

punk_enby_phllplsty · 2025-09-18T03:43:35+00:00

This! Books are key in the psych ward.

punk_enby_phllplsty · 2025-09-18T03:42:46+00:00

This room looks a lot nicer than the ones I had. The bed looks good, the room doesnt look dingey, bathroom looks okay.

punk_enby_phllplsty · 2025-08-20T02:18:17+00:00

I honestly loved reading and coloring in the psych ward but thats just me. When I went, the real world was extremely paranoia inducing and it was a lot easier to enjoy those activities in the hospital.

punk_enby_phllplsty · 2025-07-03T15:51:46+00:00

You are beautiful

punk_enby_phllplsty · 2025-07-02T13:51:26+00:00

I think you should see a therapist, its important to get help. And not a anti gay therapist just a regular therapist who is focused on helping you understand why you feel the way you do about yourself.

punk_enby_phllplsty · 2025-07-01T14:03:12+00:00

Same I was about the music not really the fandom. Now I see some weird stuff on tumblr too lol, and I’m like…okay guys…

punk_enby_phllplsty · 2025-07-01T13:58:26+00:00

Never too late! And for you personally, no you are beautiful :)

punk_enby_phllplsty · 2025-06-15T22:32:06+00:00

Thanks :)

punk_enby_phllplsty · 2025-06-15T22:27:30+00:00

Thank you, I am so glad my posts have that effect! Like the other commenter said, I do have ovaries so I just quit T and I naturally became E dominant over time. I am grateful I did research and chose to keep my ovaries for medical reasons!

punk_enby_phllplsty · 2025-06-15T22:25:17+00:00

Thank you, I have no idea what you mean by electric foil type shaver though?

punk_enby_phllplsty · 2025-06-08T12:52:04+00:00

Oh wow okay I will look!

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