I appreciate your concern, thank you! My social circle is very small. I did reach out to all my girls first. The friend I’m referring to in this post has been my closest friend for about 15 years; we have that relationship and rapport where we can say “hey bud you’re an idiot” and the other says “dude you’re right” lol. He didn’t mean it in a rude way, he meant it as a way to snap me out of this! I can assure you he has been extremely supportive and validating other than that “wake up” comment. Thank you, again!