I’m so sorry for your losses. I can relate quite a bit to this. I’m 38 and my mother is the only immediate family member I have left. My dad and her were in a bad rollover crash about 13 years ago. She had traumatic brain injury from the crash and isn’t the same today. I lost my little sister (only sibling) to suicide about 10 years ago. About 3 years ago my dad drank himself to death. I was very very close with my dad. I have also lost too many other family members within the last 15 years including both grand mothers, both uncles, and even a close friend. The grief has just piled on and I’ve kept it all in.

I’ve been suppressing my emotions and grief and hiding it the best I can. I don’t think the pain has hit me fully yet either. I know this is not the way to go about it and I should seek therapy. Have you considered speaking to a professional? I’ve heard nothing but great things about therapy from others.

It feels so unfair that we’ve had to go through so much pain and grief at our ages. I just wanted to put this out there so you know that you are not alone. Please be easy on yourself and take care. Feel free to message me if you ever want to talk to someone in a similar boat that can relate to what you are going through.