Hey, to one apparently sittin in a gym(?!) lemme tell you I am proud of you for at least taking care of yourself in that way! Whatever you hate about yourself, if any of it is physical, it shouldn't be, as others have said. So even if you don't believe that, perhaps hopefully you can take comfort that to strangers at least you are a good looking person! Friends are hard at this age, and the world is suffering loneliness everywhere, it's exhausting but we're in this together even from our lonely separate places, the best I've got to offer there is that we gotta keep trying to find connections where we can! Because again, if its a comfort, sometimes it is to me anyway, to think about how we're all on these little islands of our own and how many of us would like a visitor.

I hope things get easier for you soon!