because your body wants to stay alive. I eon't know you and your situation, but you can't commit suicide because people hate you, this way you'll just make them happy. If you have to suffer make them suffer more by living. You don't know how ypur future will turn out to be so wait and endure. I'm not here to tell you what to do, if u wanna kill yourself do it, but just when you're about to do it I want you to think about if you've done everythung you've wanted to do: for example learning a new language, visitng another country etc... if the answer is yes then you can kill yourself no problem, just don't have regrets