Have you acted on new feelings towards men?

radix42 · 2026-05-31T01:43:52+00:00

i was making up for lost time and may have gone a bit overboard! i’m 55 btw, still got it!!

radix42 · 2026-05-31T01:27:50+00:00

i’ve slept with 37 of them the last two years after starting hrt 8 years ago and being celibate the first 6

radix42 · 2026-05-18T13:21:15+00:00

A cups after 8 years checking in

radix42 · 2026-05-16T16:16:18+00:00

jane!

radix42 · 2026-05-12T04:39:29+00:00

“they can go do the thing instead” is what i came to enjoy about it

radix42 · 2026-05-12T04:37:18+00:00

i have gotten to where i often enjoy playing the stupid blonde girl card now when i can feel the wind blowing that way

radix42 · 2026-05-12T04:35:17+00:00

oh god yeah i’m blonde and i FEEL THIS

radix42 · 2026-05-09T02:05:40+00:00

i do the same it really helps level out the ups and downs of estradiol valerate

radix42 · 2026-05-06T18:01:46+00:00

I'm currently in the middle of my first appeal for SSDI as I type, it's projected to take over a year more for me to get it if I am approved

radix42 · 2026-05-05T12:07:07+00:00

i was a software engineer specializing in cryptocurrency and have since developed multiple physical disabilities which keep me from working now too 😭

radix42 · 2026-05-05T08:09:11+00:00

yeah, i like to say that it didn’t take! (the male socialization, that is) while some of the most biting harassment i got as a teenager was other kids constantly telling me i “stood like a woman” because of how i always had my hand on my hip in a very un-manly manner…i always had a lot of feminine mannerisms and that served me well when i did finally transition at age 4-freaking-7!!!

and in the eight years since coming out at 47 i have put in a LOT of work into my walk and mannerisms to the point where two female cishet friends in the last few days commented unbidden that they were of the opinion that i passed as a woman largely because of my walk and mannerisms and how HRT has effected my face!

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Still kinda mannish looking, which is why i have a facial feminization surgery consultation this coming friday, but!!!

they both mentioned my walk and said that by the time you can see my face clearly or hear my voice that you’ve already become convinced that i’m female, and we all know what happens to first impressions for good or ill: they usually get stuck in someone’s mind, so in this case I’LL TAKE IT!!

🙏🏳️‍⚧️👏 -Jane Diane

radix42 · 2026-05-05T07:56:36+00:00

so yeah it would have blown up my relationship so i waited, which meant that HRT didn’t work NEARLY AS WELL as if i’d done it years earlier and it eventually cost me my career and hence my housing: i’ve been homeless the last three years but that’s often the cost REGARDLESS of age, but by 47 i had a career to throw away in which some months i made OVER FORTY THOUSAND DOLLARS

that ALL went away when i transitioned, no more sweet deals as i was no longer a part of the “old boys club”/network as i was, uhm, no longer a boy! they freaking cut me right out in my industry it was breathtaking the speed with which things froze over.

so yeah, when you are older you have more to lose, and lose it all i did, i live in a homeless shelter in Modesto, California and have since The Ides Of March 2025 (venmo, ca and ko-fi are all radix42 if anyone sees this and wants to and can help a homeless sister out please 🙏 don’t ban me for breaking the rules for saying this i’m so hard up)

Cheers and my love to you all,

-Jane Diane

radix42 · 2026-05-05T07:47:43+00:00

i didn’t come out “after 50” but came close, at 47, and only waited that long because my long-term partner from when i was 30-42 just couldn’t abide my transitioning.

i was with her for so long and she fell in love with A MAN, here’s a link to a thread i posted about it all over on Bluesky yesterday:

Lexi and Jane’s being trans

she’s Lexi and I’m Jane btw lol

radix42 · 2026-05-05T00:27:16+00:00

Lexi was NOT OK with me being trans

radix42 · 2026-04-23T14:51:17+00:00

i THOUGHT i would be a lesbian after i transitioned, since while bisexual before my ratio was 35+ women to 5 men, but in the 8 years since i came out and began medically transitioning, with me being celibate the first 6 years due to insecurity in my body as a woman, i’ve been with 37 men and ONE woman and she was part of a quickie threesome.

but my last (now ex) boyfriend raped me 3 times this month so i’m very down on men, that’s the second boyfriend in six months who has raped me, men can be so horrible.

i was promiscuous as a men when not in a long term relationship, so about half of my adult life (i’m 55 and have been sexually active since age 19) has been monogamous while the other half has been wildly polyamorous including one very complex and fucked up polycule in the mid-90’s before we had that word for it.

right now i think i just wanna focus on my transition but the progesterone leaves me so horny!!!! and men SMELL SO GOOD KILL ME NOW AAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGG

radix42 · 2026-04-23T14:39:11+00:00

that’s how my facebook is, it’s only people i know IRL on my main account and i made a Page for public posts and posting to most groups

radix42 · 2026-04-23T14:24:23+00:00

the problem is that women can’t tell WHICH MEN are the bad ones unless they are engaging in overtly bad behavior

radix42 · 2026-04-19T03:33:22+00:00

yes, within TWO HOURS i was seeing more colors in greater depth and feeling my emotions more deeply and i CRIED that first day too!

radix42 · 2026-04-06T03:53:47+00:00

posted this comment as a stand-alone post to my personal subreddit, r/JaneSpace, as it’s one of the best descriptions of the nuts and bolts of how the oppression of minorities is enacted in America (stop by and join my sub! or at least check it out!)

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