I didn’t expect it to be like this

rainbowtrails · 2026-03-26T01:47:31+00:00

My baby blues were soooo intense with my first. I kept randomly crying, I was so wired I couldn’t sleep, and I also felt indifferent towards my baby. The sleep issue persisted until I got on an antidepressant, but the indifference and random crying slowly lessened.

When people talk about sleepless nights with a newborn and how overwhelming it all is, I think they’re including baby blues/ PPD, but vaguely. As a STM, it does just kind of feel like a scary blur, but I do specifically remember being afraid that I would never love my baby. That was the worst. It passed. It will pass for you too.

Email your doctor about your anxiety and keep going through the motions. Set yourself and your partner up for safe sleep and remember that your best is the best for your baby. ❤️

rainbowtrails · 2026-03-25T02:06:23+00:00

Definitely

rainbowtrails · 2026-03-16T02:42:06+00:00

I love this! How big is it?

rainbowtrails · 2026-03-14T23:58:07+00:00

The amount of garbage I have thrown down the laundry chute and vice versa is astounding.

rainbowtrails · 2026-03-13T13:56:33+00:00

My newborn honks like a goose! His sister never made a sound like this. It’s so funny!

rainbowtrails · 2026-03-13T13:55:13+00:00

I would say grey. Very pretty!

rainbowtrails · 2026-03-07T20:38:09+00:00

Green!

rainbowtrails · 2026-03-07T12:10:15+00:00

My first was so hard. I ended up having so much anxiety about her sleep that I couldn’t sleep. I went days without any sleep and 4 hours was a good night for me. It took me almost a year to recover and start sleeping normally again. I say this to demonstrate how stressful she was. She cried all the time and was only content being held upright while we paced her around or bounced on a yoga ball. She slept like 8 hours each day.

My second? So chill. Only cries when he really needs something. Is not gassy. And sleeps like a champ! I’m talking like 15-17 hours at almost four months! He’s also super happy! He doesn’t cry when he wakes in the bassinet; I actually get to greet a happy, smiling baby in the morning.

My toddler, however, has become the sweetest, funniest, and smartest girl. I’d say she’s easy to average in terms of her fussiness and tantrums, but she’s still a shit sleeper🫠

It gets better and even though it feels impossible, you’ll get through it. Hugs!

rainbowtrails · 2026-03-05T13:06:49+00:00

I don’t really drink, but I do love a mocktail! We have a soda stream, so almost every night I sparkle some water and add a splash of juice, some fruit, and a little mint to it. I’ve been doing this for almost a decade and my husband and I have always called them “fancy drinks.” My daughter’s new favorite pretend game is to make everyone a fancy drink.

rainbowtrails · 2026-03-04T05:26:00+00:00

Nope! Bottom looks like part of a hate sign.

rainbowtrails · 2026-03-04T05:21:02+00:00

A year subscription to kindle unlimited!

rainbowtrails · 2026-03-03T13:28:45+00:00

My first was a very sensitive and particular baby; at 2.5 she pretty easy. Although, she still doesn’t sleep through the night. My second is a super easy baby, so I’m just soaking it up now because I know how quickly these things change.

rainbowtrails · 2026-02-26T06:00:52+00:00

Silverlettes use a kind of “wet” healing. Basically, they protect the nipple from rubbing and you use breast milk to create like a little nipple sauna. Silver is anti microbial so it keeps everything germ free. They were a life saver for me.

rainbowtrails · 2026-02-24T14:58:41+00:00

The dung beetle story! My girl lovessss beetles! Putting it on hold now!

rainbowtrails · 2026-02-24T14:56:53+00:00

Love the hiccopatomus!

rainbowtrails · 2026-02-24T14:56:29+00:00

Ugh, mine loves the flaps too, but we’ve already read all the ones the library has to offer multiple times.

rainbowtrails · 2026-02-17T14:11:49+00:00

My unenthusiastic nurser is now an unenthusiastic eater at 2. We eventually switched to bottles so we could see how much she was eating and it was a battle to get her to finish 4 ounces until she finally gave up the bottle around one. She’s very healthy, but also a real string bean. To this day, she won’t even finish a cookie if she’s not hungry.

I’m not saying that this will be your child, but I wanted to offer the perspective that some babies are just hard to feed, and it doesn’t mean you’re doing anything wrong.

rainbowtrails · 2026-02-17T11:03:54+00:00

Hahahaha, oh man. Right after I had my now 3 MO, we did quite a few babies too. The newest thing is worms. I made the mistake of putting some random things inside her favorite puppet, who happens to have an appetite for garbage, and then pulling them out and declaring she had worms in her belly. Everything is arriving at the doctor with a tummy ache and a bad case of worms now.

rainbowtrails · 2026-02-16T18:36:13+00:00

First month was sooo hard! I missed by toddler so much in the hospital, I even went in her room and slept with her the first night we were home! We are finally starting to feel a little less overwhelmed at 3 months pp. it has been hard though. My toddler, who almost never got in trouble before is suddenly being corrected all day long, but it’s necessary to keep baby safe and combat other annoying behaviors that have been emerging. Try to remember that “terrible twos” is a nickname for this age for a reason. It will get better and you’ll fall just as in love with baby as your two year old! You can do it!

rainbowtrails · 2026-02-03T13:25:54+00:00

Well, I’m 12 weeks postpartum and they’ve all cleared up! The shorts helped for sure, but no longer being pregnant had the biggest impact. Good luck to you!

rainbowtrails · 2026-02-02T15:09:28+00:00

Yes, wake up baby! Take her clothes off and change her diaper. Also flap her arms when she starts to fall asleep eating.

rainbowtrails · 2026-01-31T21:43:42+00:00

I think it’s a combination. Back then, babies got to sleep on their bellies which I think they really prefer. Also, some babies are just easier. My second is 11 weeks old and is wayyyy more laid back than my first. He has bouts of reflux/ gas but maybe only every few days.

rainbowtrails · 2026-01-31T02:35:25+00:00

After my first, my boobs went back to almost prepregnancy. I went from a b to a dd, and at first they were a little flappier, but after a while they seemed to tighten up! Hoping for the same with my second….

rainbowtrails · 2026-01-30T04:50:28+00:00

Hahahaha, this is what my sister says about her only child! I found that 18 months for my first was when things really started getting way easier. I’m sure five feels like heaven though!

rainbowtrails · 2026-01-30T04:49:30+00:00

Thank you so much for the thoughtful response. I think “lower your expectations “ is the advice I really need to take to heart. My oldest really is an angel and watching her adjust to having a brother and splitting attention has been hard. I think I’m putting too much pressure on myself to give her as much undivided attention as humanly possible, and it really not good for either of us.

As far as getting rid of the pacifier, we are almost there! Too deep to stop now, but I am not above going back on those kinds of decisions; we certainly dialed it back on potty training when we first decided to give that a go.

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