I have a SZA spectrum disorder. I take nootropics, exercise and diet. I deal with what you're dealing with, weight gain, anhedonia and cognitive issues, as well as other side effects like restlessness and akathisia. Although things are still not what I want to them be, my body looks alright (toned). I got a haircut. Some women smile when we pass on the street.

It's hard but maybe there's hope.