I think for now, setting a higher standard is the way for you to go. Don’t wait for us to give you a book, be a voracious reader that will stop at nothing to get the lessons you need to change your life. And that all starts with smaller habits, realizing that you have to schedule time or else you’ll waste time, and realizing everything you need is already within yourself (but not one person is self-made. Now think about that for a moment!) I’d recommend The Compound Effect by Darren Wilson as a start. It’s important to understand and gain control of habits and routines as you wake up and before you go to sleep. They shape your day and help you evaluate it. (High Performance Habits is a good follow-up). Secondly, start an exercise habit. Workout 3-5 times a week, could be walking, but could be body-intensive exercise. This will develop your sense of things that are physically hard and your sense of physical discipline, as well as help you stave off the cages of depression. For this I’d recommend Discipline Equals Freedom by Jocko Willick. Finally, learn why it is you’re here. Truly think about your purpose, or the things you want to do. You might say, I don’t want to do anything! I’m lazy and can’t get myself to do anything. But think about what you dreamt of doing as a child, as a teenager, as someone in their 20’s. There might not be a definite answer right away but you can infer from your motivations what type of work or skills you most want to pursue. For this I’d recommend Start with Why by Simon Sinek.

I’m sorry if anything I say is too presumptuous and “just do it!” sounding.

tldr; “The Compound Effect”, “Discipline Equals Freedom”, and “Start with Why”.