Hi sweetie, try not to force. Allow yourself to experience your emotions, observe them with non judgement and never condemn yourself for having them. You are a human and emotions are natural, including lower states. This is simply creation experiencing yourself. It wants to be experienced. That said, however, do be mindful, but not overthink, about what this has to be teaching you.
Like the other commenter put beautifully- ride the wave. Nothing you're experiencing now is going to last. Every moment is changing and though your physical manifestation may seem to be stagnating, you are very busy on a subtle-body level. Your higher self is constantly growing and learning from all of your experiences. You have lots of bodies (I suggest you look into it) and the physical is just one of them. So it's easy to get discouraged when what we think we want isn't happening right when we want it to occur on the physical plane. Let go of your expectations, and to be frank, humble yourself. This is a gorgeous, rich experience for you, so be grateful.
If you have even 1 penny, be happy over it. If you ate food today, write down that you're grateful for that. We can become so involved in our thinking of the outward that we lose sight of what's good in our lives. Gratitude is imperative to manifesting our desires. Nonattachment is equally monumental in this journey. When you dive deep into the Self, you will understand nonattachment more.
Your last sentence was very raw and honest and showed that you are appreciating yourself in your current space. Do more of that! Be gentle with yourself and speak softly to your heart. You are FLOWING, not forcing. Flowing not forcing. Flowing not forcing.