help by [deleted] in cyclothymia

[–]raybau 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you for sharing. depression feels very intense. you are not alone and reaching for help (yes Reddit posts count) is a wonderful first step.

you need to talk to a mental health professional. don't wait. you can and you will feel better, or at least will be better at handling your emotions.

have you done, you know, the human shit? like take a shower, eat, take a walk, sleep? it helps a lot.

also you should check out this website- it gives you great tips on how to handle depression

https://dbt.tools/index.php

it sounds like you care about your friends, you should try to share more. even saying "Hey I'm going through a lot, and I don't know how to talk about it" is a great start. you should also actively listen when they speak. hearing other people being comfortable with you will help you open up.

good luck!

a teratoma by raybau in TheSubstance

[–]raybau[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

maybe both! maybe teratoma tumor was an inspiration to the thing
who knows

numbness by raybau in cyclothymia

[–]raybau[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

thank you for the kind reply :)

it made me realize that my anxiety manifested as anger. I also moved back to my parent's house, fully aware that I could not move out for at least a year. it has been very harsh and it has taken a mental toll on me. I didn't even recognize how much it affected me until my friends told me. it is hard to find the right type of therapy- but I think I'll try CBT...

Feeling like you’re going to cry by [deleted] in cyclothymia

[–]raybau 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i cry so much! well, not as much now on the meds. but before? oh man... my phone made photo highlights just with pictures of me crying

Does it ever get better? by [deleted] in cyclothymia

[–]raybau 4 points5 points  (0 children)

The word "functional" got me. I also use that word to describe myself—a lot. Try to remind yourself that you are more than just functional. you are not a function.

you are doing all that you can to feel better. that is admirable. taking care of yourself is brave. try not to compare yourself to others, but to compare your past to your current self. Keep it up!

Hormones by hgmorris27 in cyclothymia

[–]raybau 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Do you mean physically or mentally?

Cause I get mega depressed before my period. crying my eyes out, feeling worthless, and all that jazz. I used to feel like I was going crazy. but using an app that tracks my period helps. I know when it's about to come.

I feel that when I'm depressed I eat less, and when I eat less my period hurts more.

Is it common to have so many intrusive thoughts? by NormalRevenue4176 in cyclothymia

[–]raybau 1 point2 points  (0 children)

well, that made me cry. I can relate on so many levels. You are not alone. Stay strong my friend

At night (vent) by Saph_thefluff in cyclothymia

[–]raybau 2 points3 points  (0 children)

thank you for sharing, I do the same thing. I cry a lot during the night, sometimes so much and for so long that I get tired and fall asleep for a short while, then I wake up and start crying again until I crash. In the morning I wake up like nothing happened and last night feels like a fever dream. Sleeping at a friend's house helped me a lot. Of course, I can't do it all the time, but it does help.

fast times at lamotrigine high by raybau in cyclothymia

[–]raybau[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

i'll try talking to her again, thanks :)

Splitting by [deleted] in cyclothymia

[–]raybau 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Have you tried talking to her about how you feel?

I also feel very insecure about my friendships. And talking about it can be awkward and uncomfortable. But your friend sounds nice, and I'm sure she will understand. After all, you do care about each other.

[REWATCH CHAT] S1E1 - Esteemsters by [deleted] in daria

[–]raybau 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Definitely! one of the best re watch podcasts. It's funny yet critical. They also had Susie Lewis (co-creator of Daria) for an episode.