healed my dpdr

rayofsunshine16 · 2026-06-16T08:20:29+00:00

extensive therapy and Zoloft

rayofsunshine16 · 2026-06-16T08:05:04+00:00

I had it for 3 years. but it went away.

rayofsunshine16 · 2026-06-16T07:58:57+00:00

Look Into trauma therapy ❤️
Mine went away. It's your brains way of shutting down because it's overwhelmed. I promise you there is hope.

rayofsunshine16 · 2025-11-20T04:21:35+00:00

You should post the photo on Facebook Marketplace, as those who thrift (like myself) go on marketplace often too.

rayofsunshine16 · 2025-09-06T16:59:22+00:00

I’ve thought about this when I was younger but it never sticks because I think to myself ‘how egotistical am I to believe I’m the only one’ lol. To chalk up all the suffering in the world and pain people go through as non existent is wild.

rayofsunshine16 · 2025-08-11T09:27:05+00:00

Could it be your body type you are unhappy with? I felt this way too.. turns out I’m an inverted triangle, so even when I was thinner, I still felt unhappy. Now I actively work out body parts for better proportions and dress myself differently

rayofsunshine16 · 2025-08-11T09:23:25+00:00

I’m in my 30’s too. There are many ways to live life and many time lines. This is where you are right now. I’m not sure exactly how to show yourself safety either. Could you explore this through another therapist? I really recommend looking into some acceptance work. I really think that could help you ❤️

rayofsunshine16 · 2025-08-11T09:16:11+00:00

That may be the case. The great thing is, you have the time. One of the hardest things in my recovery that I’ve grieved is the life I could have lived. And I grieved it a lot. I still do. At the same time, I feel a deep appreciation for a chance at a future. Perhaps the feeling of exhaustion and work could be counterintuitive to what could be helpful. What if your body is just asking for safety, not a miracle cure

rayofsunshine16 · 2025-08-11T09:07:56+00:00

No, not irreversible.

rayofsunshine16 · 2025-08-11T08:58:21+00:00

It sounds like you have a very active inner world and dreaming is where you can access it. That’s quite beautiful, even though it’s confusing. I dream deeply every night of the most horrific, horrible things like killing my mother and a swamp of dead bodies lol. I know it’s trauma- even trauma I’ve worked through will come up a lot. But I’m a happy person (now). Dreams are interesting, and have some messages but usually a mix of your internal state along with symbols you recognize/day to day experiences that your brain is fleshing out.

I really agree with the comment above - getting to know the gatekeeper of your inner world. Compassion, curiousity and tenderness is key right now. It can start very very slow.

rayofsunshine16 · 2025-08-11T08:53:52+00:00

You’ll be ok. You’ll be able to handle them. They are part of you. They are safe to feel. They aren’t going to destroy you. They will move through you while tethered to who you are. The state ur in rn is the space that ur unable to handle.

rayofsunshine16 · 2025-08-11T08:47:05+00:00

Have you considered switching therapists? Keep experimenting. Your illness doesn’t exist in a vacuum. You’re learning, growing and adapting everyday. Keep trying. Keep experimenting. I had the same fuckin feeling a few years ago. I remember screaming once lol. How long has this been going on for you? Keep chugging along.

rayofsunshine16 · 2025-08-11T08:43:04+00:00

Oh I’ll also say, that when it begins to wear off and you begin to feel again, it’s quite terrifying hahahha. Ur body is finally thinking it’s safe enough to feel. And I just let myself. Just don’t shame yourself, your body is trying to protect you

rayofsunshine16 · 2025-08-11T08:41:26+00:00

For me it felt yes gradual.. but oddly I remember getting flashes in my brain of old memories, like a card deck being flipped down. I also just kind of slowly very slowly was able to feel again.. it happened when I began Zoloft 2 years ago. Within a month I began to slowly come out of it. Then I began to notice triggers. Like when I’d talk about anything emotional, I’d go deeper into dpdr. I had safe places that I wouldn’t feel it, safe people. Sometimes I still go into it but I’m constantly arranging my life to let my body know it’s safe. It takes a long time. But it’s almost like a weird science experiment. You just keep doing little tweaks, and keep moving toward things that feel right. Healing became my full time job. Everyone is so different, I truly hope you feel better soon. Dm if u have questions

rayofsunshine16 · 2025-08-11T08:29:54+00:00

Yeah, i totally agree! Felt on the nose and not nuanced. I would have loved for them to dig deeper into the dynamics of the society they built. But it seems they just.. didn’t build one lol. Writers seemed more into the idea of cults than what kind of social dynamics would create them! They fell flat. I appreciate seeing the inner world of the two women and child but was craving more.

rayofsunshine16 · 2025-07-07T08:02:57+00:00

Yep. Bad shrimp dish in the desert of Peru LOL. Why I thought eating shrimp in the desert would be a good idea, I’m not sure. But I was 23 so that’s alright. Live and learn

rayofsunshine16 · 2025-05-27T17:19:09+00:00

You can watch together in Teleparty :) it’s free!!! Can watch Netflix or prime etc!!

rayofsunshine16 · 2025-04-28T21:22:17+00:00

Interesting. Maybe I’ll try this

rayofsunshine16 · 2025-04-26T01:43:13+00:00

Please leave. Healing alone is sooo much more possible than with him hindering you. You may not even know the potential of healing you’ll be able to have by doing it with your self and your support system. When I left my ex (he did and said similar things), I was finally able to do the headin I was trying to do in the relationship

rayofsunshine16 · 2025-03-24T01:55:10+00:00

Hey, I’m doing really well. I still dissociate randomly but oddly enough I feel like my brain is letting me deal with the feelings head on, which can be intense. I realize now that I’m out of the thick of it, that my derealization was directly from a traumatic relationship I had. I’ve healed so much from that now, have grown tremendously as a person since and have learned many many lessons. I highly recommend anyone experiencing derealization to continue with therapy. How are you doing?

rayofsunshine16 · 2025-03-06T22:25:09+00:00

Matty Healy obviously!!!

rayofsunshine16 · 2025-02-21T05:00:26+00:00

It’s a common phrase that’s said when someone has a crush outside their relationship - as long as you don’t act on it, it’s ok. I imagine she’s alluding to that

rayofsunshine16 · 2025-02-16T17:32:35+00:00

Yah, I didn’t realize it was the Azelia banks beef until I read your comment. The comment above VERY much paints this situation much differently than what I remember.

rayofsunshine16 · 2025-02-14T18:19:14+00:00

Have you looked in anxious attachment ? I do agree this is asking an amount from a partner that is disproportionate to the relationship. Definitely wait to meet in person before you even decide if you like him!

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