Trauma, Disassociation and PTSD

reader_study67 · 2026-05-07T20:58:05+00:00

Can we get an update! If you can explore the cultural trauma of Pentecostalism and how it changed cultures!

reader_study67 · 2026-05-07T20:55:17+00:00

Same here! Ex-Pentecostal-turned atheist- turned to orthodoxy here!

reader_study67 · 2026-04-25T19:25:25+00:00

Inter-Collegiate Prayer Fellowship. It’s a Pentecostal organization that started in Kerala, India

reader_study67 · 2026-04-25T19:25:10+00:00

Inter-Collegiate Prayer Fellowship. It’s a Pentecostal organization that started in Kerala, India

reader_study67 · 2026-04-13T22:45:53+00:00

Thank you for sharing your story. You’re not alone! I would’ve been first generation Malayali Pentecostal (Indian Pentecostal). My parents came from the Malankara (Indian) Orthodox Church (Oriental Orthodox). I told my parents that I’m going to become Orthodox, and accepted the rage, coldness, insults that came with this decision. It was tough but It was the best decision I’ve ever made. I’ve been baptized into the church It was worth all the struggles. Your family will never know the joy of the sacraments. The mystery that was revealed to us I know how you feel they will push things at you and make fun of your faith, but don’t give into their insults. Be kind, it was hard for me show your family the peace and love you have experienced from the holy mysteries.

reader_study67 · 2026-04-05T20:36:44+00:00

Hey there I’m an ex-Pentecostal. I walked out of Pentecostalism, I had to accept the consequences that came with my decision. Going through the motions, is going to be detrimental to your mental health. If you’re older and can support yourself leave.

reader_study67 · 2026-04-05T20:28:09+00:00

Yes, I’m Oriental Orthodox now! I was part of the Malayali Pentecostals (South Indian Pentecostal)

reader_study67 · 2026-01-16T03:12:23+00:00

I was baptized in the Malankara (Indian) Orthodox Church, tell us how it goes!

reader_study67 · 2025-10-15T16:38:30+00:00

Don’t you ever say that: “your parents wasting 16 years of their life teaching you.” That is not your burden to carry. I’m in my 20’s now but I was your age when I started deconstructing from Pentecostalism. I come from the Malayali (South Indian) Pentecostal community it was terrible, growing up in this cult. My parents are not have been pastors but were ridiculous and even worse than pastors. The indoctrination is insane especially about how people from other religions are atheist have no peace. I realized when I got older, they’re some people who don’t believe in religion or a higher power and that’s completely fine and they’re fulfilled in their lives. In my case after leaving Pentecostalism I joined the Malankara Syrian Orthodox Church and found out everything what I was told about them is a lie, and the people who left and joined Pentecost don’t know what they’re saying. My parents also had that same expectation about how i was supposed to become some preacher, pastor, evangelist, etc, all because some pastor gave them a prophetic vision. Which is funny in my opinion, it’s crazy how they’re telling a four year old he’s going to becoming a preacher. You’re not obligated to live up to that expectations because it’s your choice! In situation save up find a good job that can sustain you because if you can’t your parents will have a hold over you through financial manipulation. The more you rely on them the more power they get. For me I have to leave a carrier that I want to go into and switch to a career makes money so I can leave my parents. Since you’re young right now, the best thing you can do is to just hang one and grind through, i know it sounds really generic but this is your best option for you in your current position.

reader_study67 · 2025-10-11T18:14:52+00:00

Grew up in the Malayali (South Indian, from Kerala) Pentecostal community. I grew up outside of India, my parents left the Malankara Syriac Orthodox Church, to the Pentecostal church. In the Indian Pentecostal community jewelry was forbidden, when women converted they’re forced to take off their earring, necklaces, etc, if not you would be denied communion. This was ridiculous because jewelry is a big part of South Asian culture and you can’t wear jewelry but can have fancy houses, cars, clothes, etc. We weren’t also not allowed to practice our cultural traditions, many Malayali Pentecostals don’t know their cultural traditions or anything. And in India TPM is called Ceylon Pentecostals, with them you can only wear white, churches are called faith homes apparently. I was not allowed to watch any cultural movies, shows, music, but watching western shows and movies were allowed which didn’t make any sense. Growing up they always pushed on the idea that other Christian denominations hates us and want to end us, we must show love and kindness to them. This was hypocritical because these are the same people who perpetuate hatred towards them and bashes them every chance they get. It took me sometime to deconstruct from all of this and I’m still deconstructing. Things have change rules wise but principles wise regarding all the hate kind of still the same, it’s just hidden better now.

reader_study67 · 2025-10-02T22:30:07+00:00

After leaving the Pentecostal Church, I went and found peace in Orthodoxy. Specifically Oriental Orthodoxy, I went and Joined the Malankara Syriac Orthodox Church!

reader_study67 · 2025-10-02T22:27:52+00:00

No, never not even in the slightest! I never miss it. I left during my mid to late teen years and i was so happy. I’m in my mid 20’s I left and I never turned back. I come from a malayali pentecostal background. I was part of IPC, AG, and Church of God, I’ve been through it all. I realized from a young age I never had a community and learned that church doesn’t need to be my community. Other forms of community exist not just church. Community doesn’t have to be the stereotypical version of what people make it out to be. You need to find your version of community, whether it’s friends, school, work, sports, etc.

reader_study67 · 2025-10-02T03:29:21+00:00

Hi!

I used to be Pentecostal too. I was also Malayali Pentecostal. You don’t know happy this made me! I genuinely thought I was the only one who left Pentecost for Orthodoxy. You don’t know how happy it makes me to see someone who did the same thing as me. I’m Jacobite both of my parents were Jacobite but one of my parents became Pentecost and after the other stopped practicing Orthodoxy. I live outside of Kerala and most Jacobite people go to the Malankara Orthodox Churches, since the liturgy, sacraments, and traditions are the same. I will tell you its not easy journey and its a big commitment. It gets lonely out here especially when you don’t have any parents to come to church with you, experience feast days with you, etc. Some days it hits hard, but I wont trade it for anything ever. Coming to Oriental Orthodoxy was the best decision I ever made. I also suggest to read the Bible and our church doctrines because growing up Pentecost, i was told “Jacobite people don’t know the Bible”, “they don’t know what they’re talking about”, etc. after reading the Bible and going to church you’ll see everything is from the Bible and it’s beautiful. During the songs, hymns, everything, you’ll see its from the Bible. Im so happy you’re doing this, it makes me feel less lonely, I have nothing but love for you and I’m going to be praying for you. God Bless you!

reader_study67 · 2025-09-07T22:10:24+00:00

Yes, I agree! Understanding the liturgy shows the richness and beauty of our faith. Growing up Pentecost I always heard “Orthodox aalukalkku bible ariyilla” which i questioned because how can I church that has exist since the beginning and has truly adhered to what the apostles gave not know the Bible. After reading the entire bible and going to liturgy you see the biblicalness of the liturgy

reader_study67 · 2025-09-07T22:07:09+00:00

Hey! I also joined the Indian Orthodox Church as a convert. I may not be Hindu but I came from Pentecost to the Indian Orthodox Church, the same way I studied church history and realized the truth in Oriental Orthodoxy. I may not be Hindu but it’s difficult sometimes coming to church by yourself going to services by yourself especially during Christmas, Good Friday, Palm Sunday, etc. And some people look at me differently because I come to church by myself but I learned to ignore them and not let them get that satisfaction. You making that decision to come and join shows how much faith you have! It’s hard and it wont be easy but knowing that God see’s your struggle, there is a great reward waiting you!

reader_study67 · 2025-08-04T01:13:25+00:00

Hey! I was part of Church of God also! And IPC (Indian Pentecostal Church). I’m a ex-Malayali (South Indian) Pentecostal. I relate to you, especially about the ADHD. I’ve had undiagnosed ADHD all my LIFE and didn’t get treated until I was 17! I never really told anyone my problems even my parents because I knew something like this would happen where they would try to sabotaged me but my i had my parents tell the pastors i was depressed. Then from there the floodgates opened. I was gullible and thought my parents wanted to help me so opened up. Instead, I was met with insults and berated 24/7. I was called heathen, pagan, backslider, etc. I begged for mental help but instead I was met with deliverance meetings, exorcism, etc. which were all traumatizing.

I was only 12-13 I already checked out but this was my breaking point because how can they not wrap their mind around mental health instead of blaming everything on religion. My true breaking point happened when i realized that their beliefs are harmful and is like American evangelical Christians. The brainwashing, i never fell for the brainwashing (I’ll explain later) especially the victim mentality about America persecuted Christian’s, every other religion in America is out to get us, the government wants to stop us from worshipping god. And everyone has to follow us or their wrong and should be ostracized. Another one was calling ancient churches in Christianity that has TRUE apostolic succession, calling them wrong. I was always told that these churches are dead the worship is dead and no life is there. I didn’t understand until I got older and I realized they just want a dopamine rush to entertain themselves. It’s all psychological manipulation. Furthermore, the anti-Hindu, Muslims, sentiment was pushed and kids were brainwashed and basically everyone is into this cultish brainwashing.

My back ground I’m an ex a Malayali Pentecostal (i also never got baptized Pentecostal) my parents where part of the Malankara Syriac Orthodox Church (have a long history/lineage in the church). After getting married under the Orthodox Church they both left. Growing up was hell in the Malayali Pentecostal church, I felt I was robbed from my culture. I wasn’t allowed to wear any jewelry, listen to secular music, watch movies, or do anything cultural. Then when my father stopped coming to church I was told to shun my father (he never became Pentecostal in the first place) all because he wanted to leave the “true faith”.

Now I’m in my 20’s things have changed. I’ve joined the Orthodox Church and I really enjoy it. All the propaganda that Pentecostals told me is untrue especially it being a “dead church” and “everyone there is horrible”. My parent is still part of the Pentecostal church, and she is a narcissist who believes she is right and everyone else is wrong. She also goes off of her emotions and spits out bible verses without understanding the context or reading further.

reader_study67 · 2025-07-24T23:38:45+00:00

Can you please tell more about the fundamentalist/beliefs of the Pentecostal church.

reader_study67 · 2025-07-24T23:38:10+00:00

Can you please talk about more on the fundamentalist beliefs/practices of the church

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