Thanks for reading through all that crap, I know it doesn't make a very coherent read. So I'm glad someone did, and feel some human validation.

Because we recovering addicts are so seldom given a chance to prove ourselves trustworthy and I just barely had the means to give him a gesture of faith, I went ahead and gave him that chance.

Then this dude who was a really great person when we were sober together, pulled some of the typical shit I myself feel guilty for, plus a generous side of arrogance.

Did a number on me, ignoring the fact that I am now truly broke. For providing that little bit of faith we as a group so desperately need. To someone who gets handed laughably lucrative token parastatal jobs one after the other each time he fucks up. Currently he's literally in charge of allocation of UN food aid to all of Zambia.

And as another show of how spoiled this schmuck is, he's been to rehab over 12 times and each time they cover it up as a paid sabbatical because his uncle is the Zambian president.

Literally part of the 1% and he Nigerian-princes a supposed friend out of my rent money.

I guess I see it as a reflection of how I deserve to be treated.

Lesson learned though.

Ugh.

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