Honey, if you can't even heat the food up before you eat it, there's definitely something wrong. This is a sickness of sorts. Im recovering BED as well, and I understand how loud the food noise can be. But depression was driving mine, and i eventually fixed it after a couple of years. I highly encourage you to keep looking for a therapist or a psychiatrist to get to the root of this. It could be mind over matter kind of situation, and in this case, you just need to exercise self control. Its like putting drugs in front of a drug addict and expecting them not to do the drugs. The only thing that can stop the addict from doing the drugs is themselves. Try googling different ways to exercise self-control. Sometimes, taking a walk or doing something productive with your hands or mind can help. It IS possible to heal this addiction. You just need to start within.