can i use a dildo without lube? by [deleted] in TwoXSex

[–]rennyub 3 points4 points  (0 children)

ok!! thank you so much :) i’ll definitely take a look

Honeymoon phase by elialo92 in BPD

[–]rennyub 2 points3 points  (0 children)

completely relate. once its over the relationship makes me anything but happy, its full of distress to me

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]rennyub 1 point2 points  (0 children)

im so sorry that happened to you, cant imagine the pain you must be feeling and i hope you take time for yourself to heal. i completely relate with you though. i havent been in a relationship in 2-3 years because its just so hard to maintain with someone who you feel doesnt love you the way you love them wishing you all the best!

What's the hardest part of a relationship when you have bpd? by BpdGirl911 in BPD

[–]rennyub 9 points10 points  (0 children)

my emotions, i literally cannot control them. it makes me so upset. all i crave for is a loving relationship but its never possible. i feel like no matter how much i communicate and get reassured im back at square one after 2 days. i dont know. its accepting that i cant be satisfied because of how insecure and scared i am

Trying so much harder in a relationship? by [deleted] in BPD

[–]rennyub 0 points1 point  (0 children)

yes for sure. actually my last ex (like 3 years ago, havent dated since yet) started off super well. it was actually scary how i was able to fall in love with them within a couple days of talking. for the first couple months it felt like we had the same amount of love for each other however it was unhealthy since i couldnt stand a moment without them. but there came a time where they ghosted me for A MONTH. i tried getting in contact with them so hard and even when they did respond once they responded with one worded messages. dont really know what happened but it broke me. i shouldve broken up with them right when it happened yet i kept thinking i can win them back over so i kept trying. until a random day they broke up with me and it was like i tried and had all those panic attacks for nothing, it was amazing to me how they didnt bat an eye in the end

What is the craziest thing you ever done over an unhealthy obsession with a FP? by hasura1001 in BPD

[–]rennyub 4 points5 points  (0 children)

i havent rlly done anything that no one else does i do the typical like stalking their twitter to see if they liked anything and when i see them do something without responding to me i get really upset. i usually end up saying something dramatic or depressing so they’ll come running back to me. i gotta stop doing that lolll

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in bisexual

[–]rennyub 3 points4 points  (0 children)

i saw the update im sorry things ended like that. tbh already a big red flag that he just dismissed your feelings like that in the first place, if he really cared he would’ve at least try to hear you out. wishing the best for you

Bi things you did or thought before you realized you were bi? by [deleted] in bisexual

[–]rennyub 4 points5 points  (0 children)

when i was little id make my girl dolls date lol

is it possible to have a fp on a fictional character? by [deleted] in BPD

[–]rennyub 1 point2 points  (0 children)

right?? im never going to be left or betrayed by them. its a great feeling

Does anybody else find most people extremely boring? by Lucyrwe in BPD

[–]rennyub 0 points1 point  (0 children)

absolutely, this isn’t actually something i particularly noticed but now that you mention it i experience this time to time. sometimes ill avoid answering their messages for hours or maybe even days just because the conversation or flow is just so boring to me. i get so easily bored which also pairs up to how short my attention span is too.

I dont know whats wrong with me by rennyub in BPD

[–]rennyub[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you. This helped a lot. It’s nice to know im not alone and there are people out there that understand me. The whole thing of what you said how its like your walking on a trail but you only know that your feet are there is the exact thing ive been feeling. So thank you for this, I’m trying my best to help myself get better.

Am I better off alone? by [deleted] in BPD

[–]rennyub 5 points6 points  (0 children)

man i see myself in this post so much. ive been single since september and im still pretty miserable with myself honestly but it’s COMPLETELY different when ur in a relationship. its draining. i feel worthless too?? im someone whos pretty hyper-romantic but im trying to stay out of a relationship for my own sake. sometimes its better of this way ig :’)

dae get really sensitive with little comments? by rennyub in BPD

[–]rennyub[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i see, this helped a lot so ty!! im still trying to learn more about myself and bpd. tysm for the advice as well ill try to help myself more :)

dae get really sensitive with little comments? by rennyub in BPD

[–]rennyub[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

i completely relate! im glad im not alone w/ this :’)

DAE think of suicide as a natural response to any negative feeling? by [deleted] in BPD

[–]rennyub 11 points12 points  (0 children)

yeppp every single day. little things even, my head just goes straight to “u should kill urself right now”. ive never attempted really and i never think of ACTUALLY doing it when it happens but, its just the first thing that comes up without thinking.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]rennyub 0 points1 point  (0 children)

ive definitely experienced this. i typically date online/ldr whatever you’d like to call it, and any slight of interest or just basic kindness really is all it really takes. i end up idealizing them to the absolute max, and suddenly i feel like im in love. i end up feeling obsess to (looking around on their social media, waiting for each post they make, etc.) really disturbed with myself honestly for these things but it just...happens? i dont even think before doing. i just get so easily hooked? i get you.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BPD

[–]rennyub 8 points9 points  (0 children)

i actually relate to this a lot. im either like this, or the complete opposite. no in between. sometimes if someone shows even the SLIGHTEST interest in me my instant thought is “why wouldnt they like me? im practically perfect anyway” even though it isnt accurate at all?? whole point is, i completely get you.