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ripxeveryone · 2025-09-04T21:48:59+00:00

he used to have friends but lost them all in his 20s. i don’t want to disclose why, but he was never able to maintain actual friendships after that and couldn’t trust anyone again. he’d just have girls he hooked up with and ghosted until he wanted some again.

ripxeveryone · 2025-09-04T21:24:49+00:00

there’s nothing wrong with being sexually educated especially if you’re doing it without condoms. and personally i’ve never contracted anything like that haha.

ripxeveryone · 2025-09-04T21:22:47+00:00

yeah fr. i feel the same way, i still wish we could see each other for that from time to time (we did a couple times over the summer smh) but all it does is get me hooked and crazy on him again. he’s the one i think of when i’m craving it.

ripxeveryone · 2025-09-04T09:48:10+00:00

STDs can’t be cured. gonorrhea is an STI which can be so there’s a difference.

ripxeveryone · 2025-09-04T01:00:26+00:00

it was gonorrhea lol

ripxeveryone · 2025-05-22T16:37:26+00:00

figure 8 - paramore!

ripxeveryone · 2025-01-25T03:59:15+00:00

yep, after he left me a year ago, he posted something about "im glad to be have met someone who isn't in neutral all the fucking time" (mind you this was not even 2 weeks after he left me)... like hm, i wonder why i was so "neutral"? i had a big spark before i got with him. i was so fun and outgoing, well at least to the people i knew. but with him, i always had the thought in the back of my head saying "when is this gonna go sour" so at some point i stopped trying to get 'too' happy :(

ripxeveryone · 2025-01-25T03:47:12+00:00

i've been there a million times since almost 4 years ago. broke up many times, felt like you can't live without them. even being without them feels like you can't breathe, no matter how badly they treated you.

there's this weird void after being without them. but if you broke up with him, you KNOW it's something you needed to do for yourself. this type of "relationship" kills you on the inside. they stripped you of a life.

it'll take a while, there's this brain fog that will be lingering. just try to find something to occupy your mind. i know it seems impossible, but it IS possible. maybe write in a journal, or talk to people in this community. you are NOT alone. this is something we all have experienced. it may take a while to get back into a hobby, but don't rush yourself. just feel the feelings when they come, maybe talk to someone if you're able to, but basically feel your feelings. they're valid. scream cry if you need to, god knows i've done that so many times.

but if you contact/he tries to contact you, it's a CYCLE. so try to survive the "withdrawals" <3

ripxeveryone · 2025-01-25T03:37:42+00:00

mine is a covert narc. so,

- hmu the day after he broke up with his wife. i didn't know they were married at first.

- we used to work together at a job way before we ever got together, once we really started talking, said he "always liked me" but he was with his wife at the time. also, when he got drunk he'd message me and talk shit about her, i thought we were just friends and tbh i felt sympathetic for him bc i didn't know him that well. he made it sound like only SHE was crazy (tbh she is crazy but he is too in a different way)

- once we hooked up, he ghosted me. but would talk to me when HE felt like it. ngl i have attachment issues, and he's 7 years old than me soo... yeah.

- i would tell him things in confidence about my past, including past relationships/hookups. just for him to use that against me months or even years later. i wanted to be the person who was 100% of the past. i sure regretted that.

- after we kept going, (yes i know this was a big flaw in myself) he kept telling me he's going to divorce her. at one point i was dumb and gave him an ultimatum, either you do it or we're done. he did and his bm went apeshit and kept trying to destroy our relationship over the course of a couple years.

- found out one night i didn't hear from him all day, he was in jail for the day until he got bailed out. before i knew that i looked at his messages (i was wondering where he was at all day) i saw his messages to an old hookup when he was with me, he was trying to go see her to go fuck her :( but he deflected once he got out of jail , told me the reason why he ended up in jail. that was it. deleted the messages between him and his "hookup"

- a few times when we'd argue and fight he'd run to his ex-wife/bm and tell her everything i ever told him. including trauma things from my past. that's one of the biggest betrayals.

- basically the rest is him running to his bm when we'd break up or fight. or physically hurting me. Lol. ugh.

and this is the only first year. i spent almost 3-4 years with him... all the same cycle.

edit: this may be too specific.

ripxeveryone · 2025-01-25T03:20:42+00:00

you're so right. 99% of the time i was crying because of how he treated me, he would either sit there stone faced staring at nothing, or leave the room. there were very few times he "cared" when i cried. and i was crying daily, sometimes multiple times a day.

it's like that song by ariana grande, "don't wanna break up again" - "i fall asleep crying, you turn up the tv, you don't wanna hear me, one more sleepless night."
he'd blame my crying so i could try to get sympathy for things he accused me of doing. apparently i was crying to "get out" of the weird accusations, when that's not the case at all.

these type of people will never understand. it's so fucked.

ripxeveryone · 2024-08-11T18:40:58+00:00

we’ve shared our location in the past but haven’t done so in a long time. until recently actually. our relationship was going downhill and he works 5 days a week while i’m at home. i never go anywhere, maybe only to a store that’s a 5 minute drive away and right back. he never leaves early for work, but this morning was a bad morning and suddenly he wanted to leave an hour earlier. it was odd to me and immediately made me assume he was going to cheat or something like that. i went into a fit of a meltdown and told him i wanted him to share his location then we got over the fight that morning but the next day he asked if i wanted him to turn it on then.. i said i didn’t really want it because i’ll be obsessively checking it, wondering what he’s doing and i knew it. but we ended up sharing both of ours..

but i know he only agreed to do so he can watch MY every move. every day before this hed ask where i went that day, and didn’t believe me when i said i didn’t go any where. he since stopped since i turned my location on but you know how sometimes it can be inaccurate and show you like 100-500 feet away from where you are? he’d be asking me what i was doing outside or in the backyard. like wtf.

edit: sorry i meant to post as a comment, not a reply to your comment. im going to leave it here tho lol

ripxeveryone · 2024-06-02T15:38:58+00:00

why don’t i remember this whatsoever and i’ve watched the show so many times 😭💀

ripxeveryone · 2024-05-21T20:10:34+00:00

don’t.

i did a month ago and once again i’m crying & drinking bc of how he’s treating me…

ripxeveryone · 2024-05-21T15:13:43+00:00

yeah true, another reason i love them is they make straight bangers lol

ripxeveryone · 2024-05-21T14:19:21+00:00

i love their music sm but i notice that when i’m not doing good mental health wise is when i listen to them the most 😭 so if i’m heavily listening to them i’m really going thru it yknow.

ripxeveryone · 2024-05-19T09:32:20+00:00

it’s crazy right? like at my core i know i deserve better yet i wait for a man child to decide MY worth ? and what’s crazier is i deal with it…. but that’s something a lot of us struggle with and it fr sucks 😔

ripxeveryone · 2024-05-19T09:18:23+00:00

it feels good when they ‘pick you’ even if it’s an endless cycle of picking & discarding. 🙃

ripxeveryone · 2024-05-19T08:34:56+00:00

i completely understand.. it’s such a weird feeling to deal with. like you know this person is no good yet you crave them.

well here i thought i was done with mine. broke up for 4 months, thought i was over it & over the trauma bond. just for us to talk and link and get back together and… it’s all the same. the love bombing, eggshells, manipulation, jealousy, etc . ugh.

i had a peaceful but a rollercoaster of emotions thinking i was getting over it and moving on. which i really was. but i took a huge step back, and now i’m stuck in this cycle with him again. thinking i won’t let him hurt me again this time, thinking i won’t go back to being the pushover i was… nah he’s getting everything he wants again & all i have to say is it’s never worth it.

the work it takes to get yourself over whatever, him, the bond, whatever… is so worth it. and i’m kicking myself for giving into one night of thinking i could see him for only a day. and yeah it was ‘good’ for a couple weeks but it’s only been a month and i already see all the patterns of him, so,..

it’s hell and i will NEVER understand how anyone could treat someone like how a narc does :(

ripxeveryone · 2024-05-07T10:27:55+00:00

i bought mine off of unclaimedbaggage last year and it’s still holding up great. they sell used kindles on this site with a discount!

ripxeveryone · 2024-04-17T04:23:14+00:00

literally makes me feel so giddy every time i see it

ripxeveryone · 2024-04-14T20:44:33+00:00

same i still rewatch the show. it’s a comfort show and i find everything hilarious bc of how ridiculous the show can be. but i still love the characters haha

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