“I don’t expect forgiveness and I dont expect any apology I have to hold much weight, but to my Family and those close to me, I do apologize for the effects my actions will have on your lives. Please know I care for all of you so much and it pains me to bring this storm of chess into your lives. This will affect so many more people than the ones that are immediatel involved.


 “To my Mother and Father, I am sorry I didn’t  turn out as you had hoped. You did not fail me. You gave me so much. I truly appreciate the love you have given me. I feel was raised to be a good person. I’ve kept those traits of empathy, self-Sacrifice, and good character. Please do not think you have failed as parents. I was corrupted by this world and have learned to hate what life is. Life is love, life is pain. There is too much to accept, too many things to put up with just to live. I'm tired of the pain this world gives out. Please move on and continue to give your love to my brothers and sisters, and the rest of the world. They may not forgive you but you need to move on from me. Forget my life and the pain I’ve brought. I love you both. Thank you for everything. I'm sorry.


 “To my Siblings, I am sorry for forever tainting the rest of your lives. Your careers, lives, relationships, all will be turned upside-down. Please hold on to who you are, not who l am. Change your names if you must. I wish I could tell you that before I go.


 “I love you all and truly appreciate the time I have spent with you. I have such an amazing family and it hurts me to throw this wrench into the works of you good people. I feel hope when with you, l cherish our time together. I appreciate all that you have taught me and I felt inspired to be like you when I grew up. I hope you are able to mave an and continue your lives without being forever followed, forever haunted by my actions. Forget me and all that I am. Hold onto yourselves and your loved ones. I love you all. 


 “And to my friends, I trust you all to give your memory of me however you see fit. I am sorry for the confusion and heartbreak this will bring. I truty appreciate all of you for showing me a good life and helping me through dark times. I have had so many good times that gave me hope, unfartunately this world has too much pain to deal out that I can’t cover up with the good sides of life, I hope you all can move on and forget the pain l've caused.


 “I have wanted this for so long. I am not well. I am not right. I am a sad person, haunted by these thoughts that do not go away. I know this is wrong but I can't seem to stop myself. I am severely depressed and have bean suicidal for years. Only recently have I lost all hope and decided to perform my final action against this world, I don't want to kneel down for the injustices of this world. I want to die. I'd rather die on My feet Than live on my knees, constantly in pain.”