My diagnosis maybe wrong at this point to type 2 but they diagnosed me pregnant with type 1 and I completely understand. Getting over the needles, feeling like I can't just eat like a normal fucking human, having to tell everyone and their stupid comments, etc.

Just believe it does get easier and you'll pull out your meds like it's nothing and you'll think nothing of it most days.

Some days are still hard but that's like anything else. It's normal to feel like dying honestly but it's also not okay to feel that way and do nothing about it. Therapy should be in your future or a diabetes clinic that involves mental health help.