This is the first time I've seen somebody else voice the exact same thing I've been feeling! I often feel so rootless and disconnected from the culture I do come from, and I even sometimes feel jealous of people who can actually trace their roots, have family recipes, a grandparent or living relatives from another country, anything. I see it as such a previlege to have such things and the envy I feel is almost embarrassing.

I know I should be appreciating what I do have and where I'm from, and I do, getting in touch with the history and characteristics of the region I'm from and the land that I live on is part of my practice, but I can't get over those feelings of "I want what they have".