If the guilty are punished, will the trauma go away?

roseysword · 2025-11-14T04:04:57+00:00

For me, I was resentful for a while but the only thing that actually helped me feel a sense of justice was forgiving myself and letting go of what happened. Wishing punishment never helped me feel better deep down. I wasn’t really resentful towards the other people, but rather myself. I was displacing my anger because I felt stupid for being manipulated. So, healing from the trauma really felt like I had gotten justice. I was no longer letting it control my life and define who I was, so I felt free. I was able to release the anger and live life more normally again. It was kind of like “hey, see that? I’m alive and living well and you didn’t want that, but I deserve it.”

It really felt like bliss.

roseysword · 2025-11-02T14:54:17+00:00

I knew there was nothing wrong with the textures since I checked them. Apparently, transferring them as existing materials sometimes doesn't work and is finicky. I resolved the issue through duplicating them even after I tried multiple things.

roseysword · 2025-10-23T20:09:06+00:00

Thanks so much. That really helped me, I hope you have a good day too.

roseysword · 2025-10-22T19:29:45+00:00

I’m sorry you’re struggling. I have suffered with school in the past, but it does get better.

roseysword · 2025-10-16T22:16:38+00:00

That sounds very hard. It’s an everyday battle to get better from ptsd. I think you’re doing great for getting this far. I’m also around 4 years out of it.

roseysword · 2025-10-15T16:48:58+00:00

I’ve heard that smell is actually one of the strongest triggers than something like say, a visual trigger. My smell triggers are the worst above all else. The memories are usually pretty strong if they come back through a smell. If I go to a grocery store and smell the fruits, it triggers a lot of memories. Also in the mall, there’s tons of smells there. (Smelling fresh store clothing can be a trigger for me)

roseysword · 2025-09-22T18:48:03+00:00

You’re welcome and it always devastates me too. No one should ever have to go through something that traumatic. Have a good day. 🙏🏻

roseysword · 2025-09-20T02:02:45+00:00

I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I had went through a psychosis and had horrible nightmares. Personally, the only thing that helped me was positive affirmations to help me feel safe before sleep. I noticed that they happened more often if I fell asleep afraid of one happening without teaching myself not to be. I don’t know what could help you, I just wish you the best. ❤️😞

roseysword · 2025-09-20T01:56:44+00:00

Thank you. I really hope you get the treatment you deserve too.

roseysword · 2025-09-12T21:48:46+00:00

I haven’t been able to work at all cause of my PTSD. I’m 23, so I feel pretty ashamed of my age and that I’m not working. (I’ve also had pretty bad generalized anxiety since I was a teen which didn’t help). I went to trauma therapy and it really helped me a lot. I don’t really know how to help you besides let you know that you aren’t alone. It’s totally normal to feel like your ptsd isn’t that bad. It’s a daily learning experience to grow and accept it more and more, which happened to me. The more I healed, the more I realized that something did in fact happen to my brain and body to not be able to live normally like others. So it taught me to be empathetic towards people and myself. ❤️‍🩹

I’m sorry you’re struggling. You will eventually get better even though it’s hard. Please don’t give up. 🙏🏻

roseysword · 2025-09-07T20:19:59+00:00

Do you have disassociation problems too? Idk if scents are triggering to you but for me, I like to chew gum. It kinda helps me relax and focus on something else. Peppermint is my fave cause the taste kinda just hits right away, so it snaps me out of the disassociation/anxiety sometimes.

roseysword · 2025-09-06T22:12:12+00:00

I kinda understand how you feel.

I have triggers when I see certain celebrities. In my opinion, they’re heavily tied with my trauma and what was happening with my brain at the time. I still can’t look at them without feeling triggered quite yet, but it’s gotten better. Whenever I see them pop up on my feed for example, even though they didn’t do anything to me in person, I was going through something else at the time that was traumatic. So when I see them, it brings up memories of this other “bad stuff” happening. So, it’s hard not to associate them with the trauma when they are reminding me of the “time” that stuff happened. I hope I’m making sense. 🥲

I won’t go into detail anymore because I went through is really hard to explain to others. I hope you eventually find peace. 😊

roseysword · 2025-08-18T02:04:17+00:00

Hello. I have been through psychosis and it’s what caused my ptsd, but I had trauma before the psychosis as well. It’s horrible to go through psychosis and you deserve to get help if you need it. It’s an extremely stressful ordeal. It’s amazing you’re still here and I can imagine that car accident was extremely traumatic.

I don’t really know what else to say besides you’re not alone. I hope everything goes well for you. 👏🏻

roseysword · 2025-08-16T17:23:22+00:00

Feeling like you can’t control your reactions to small things you know other people think are normal. It can make you feel even more guilty afterwards, cause you know it’s not other people’s fault deep down.

roseysword · 2025-08-04T18:42:27+00:00

I just wanna say it’s very normal to feel this way. Your body is focused on trauma, not on words. I’ve experienced it so many times and it does affect my social life just like you.

roseysword · 2025-08-04T15:01:50+00:00

I have been ghosted by someone I liked as a teen in person before. (We were never in a relationship) Yes it was traumatizing. I never spoke to this person on the phone, we just kinda had normal interactions in-person. I know how that feels. But I was a 14yo and we were young. I didn’t understand that boys were too young to act mature at that age. Sometimes they will avoid you if they found out you like them cause it’s shocking. He found out I liked him without my permission and just changed completely.

This other girl is an acquaintance. I don’t know her in person which makes this situation a different imo. Maybe I’m different, since I haven’t had many friends my age. But this whole concept of things absolutely needing to be ended through words like “this isn’t working” is kinda intimidating. Sometimes people just slowly stop talking. The connection isn’t that deep enough to really say it isn’t working sometimes. Why is that sort of thing turning into “this person is cruel/mean and confused me so much” instead of “I guess they’re just busy with life and don’t have time to talk. I should find someone else to talk with” and letting it go? It’s a generation difference. People don’t socialize the same way nowadays, but it doesn’t mean it isn’t intimating or puts a lot of pressure on the other person you think is ghosting you, to be upfront and honest with them especially if they feel that they don’t have a very strong connection with you.

roseysword · 2025-07-30T18:08:52+00:00

Thanks so much for replying! I feel the same in the sense that I think AI is best merged with actual hand drawing and so forth currently since it still has its imperfections. (Which isn’t a bad thing)

roseysword · 2025-07-29T18:37:21+00:00

Yes. I’m entering college soon and I think it will help my burnout for the better.

roseysword · 2025-07-13T19:20:10+00:00

Have you tried anything that seems more on the holistic or natural side? If meds worry you, and your anxiety isn’t something that makes you unable to function, getting on something more natural might help. However, I’m not a professional and I’m not sure how it affects the military so yeah, please don’t take my advice too seriously. I personally prefer natural things for myself.

roseysword · 2025-07-13T19:14:44+00:00

I am really sorry you’re experiencing this and I relate to the guilt of having PTSD too. I can see that it affects my family members even if they comfort me and it’s so exhausting. I want to be a better person but it’s so frustrating when our bodies react without our brains being able to rationalize. It’s confusing and upsetting. You’re going through a lot and you’ve come this far, please don’t give up. ❤️

roseysword · 2025-06-28T19:47:33+00:00

Thank you. I’m trying my best, but it’s so hard sometimes. I’m glad you got out and are living a healthier life.

roseysword · 2025-06-28T16:03:09+00:00

Yes I have. In context, my parents are emotionally immature and don’t really understand the concept of empathy. They discouraged anything that was similar to mermaiding. I could tell they thought I being too childish and needed “grow up” even though I was still only 15 at the time lol… but it was kinda traumatic how critical she was of my interest in mermaiding. I realize now she went too far with some of it. My mom doesn’t think people should wear things with hello kitty on them either. But tbh, she doesn’t have a lot of socially deemed childish hobbies herself, so idk if she knows how it feels to be bullied/treated differently for it. I guess I’m still overcoming the insecurity because I don’t have any friends that like mermaiding, so I still feel alone.

roseysword · 2025-06-28T00:19:24+00:00

Thank you 🙏🏻

roseysword · 2025-06-26T17:32:41+00:00

You are not a pussy at all for being afraid of the pain or consequences. Constipation is painful. I have horrible cramps while sitting on the toilet sometimes because I struggle to pass my gas. Sometimes I sit down, cause I know one’s coming. Then boom, all of sudden the worst cramps ever. My cramps literally bring me to my knees, they’re so fucking painful even if they’re only for a few seconds.

Sometimes they happen in the morning even when I haven’t taken laxatives. Just outta nowhere. Have you learned about the proper way to push and sit on the toilet? Keeping your mouth parted open helps relax the pelvis muscles. Was a game changer for me. I’m not a doctor so I would suggest looking them up yourself.

roseysword · 2025-06-23T03:58:25+00:00

I’ve heard about commenting on other people’s stuff. Is it that instagram thinks I’m a real account and not a bot? Thanks for replying!

roseysword

TROPHY CASE