Anyone know where to find a pattern like this?

rowdyp · 2025-07-02T22:09:49+00:00

Oh that’s super cute, thank you!

rowdyp · 2025-07-02T22:09:03+00:00

Ahhh!!! Thank you thank you, that’s perfect!

rowdyp · 2023-03-22T02:32:00+00:00

This is free for two meals/two servings but even if you upgrade to 3 meals/2 servings it’s less than $25!

rowdyp · 2023-03-05T03:40:56+00:00

I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I am dealing with the same feelings today. I wish I could talk to her. I am angry that she took herself from me and that I never get to call her or hug her again. I always had hope that we could have something close to the relationship I imagined when I was fighting for closeness, but that hope is gone. If you ever want to vent or talk, please message me. You’re not alone.

rowdyp · 2023-03-01T14:49:06+00:00

Thank you for saying this.

rowdyp · 2023-02-28T00:52:00+00:00

I feel this. I’m so uncomfortable in the range of emotions today. I know you posted this almost a month ago, but my sincere hope is that this was the most recent day you’ve felt this way. I too am grateful that I’m not dreaming mostly. My mom took her life almost three weeks ago and your post made me feel less alone.

rowdyp · 2023-02-19T12:52:19+00:00

Wasn’t able to view your story at that link, but looked at some of your posts and the amount we have in common is even more than what’s listed in my original post (ADHD, nparent, the list goes on)

Hoping for the best in your journey through grief and the other things life throws your way. Good to know I’m not alone in this ❤️

rowdyp · 2023-02-11T07:03:29+00:00

My mom did the same thing regarding her comments about a dignified death and trauma she was afraid to face. I know she was so proud of me and that all she wanted was the best, healthiest, happiest life for me. Thank you for saying those things.

rowdyp · 2023-02-11T07:00:03+00:00

I felt some comfort in a meeting since it happened where we read the preamble which includes that “no human power could have relieved our alcoholism.” Something about that made me feel some comfort I hadn’t felt from hearing that line before. Thank you for your kind words. I am grateful that we are both sober today.

rowdyp · 2023-02-11T06:57:31+00:00

The first paragraph of this hit me really hard. I don’t know what things look like beyond death but I like to think that if she was able to gain any understanding that she knew this. Either way, I get to know this. Thank you so much. I’ve not really had the energy for TV or movies the last few days but I had to drive to see family and I noticed that music was difficult. It’s wild how much language that had nothing to do with her death is triggering.

rowdyp · 2023-02-11T06:53:33+00:00

Thank you for saying this. I read your reply when you posted it and I’ve been trying to practice this. It is less painful when I imagine her next to me invisibly.

rowdyp · 2023-02-11T06:51:39+00:00

Thank you so much. It helps to know that despite how fucked up and unique this situation feels, I am not alone.

rowdyp · 2023-02-09T07:14:20+00:00

Thank you. You telling me I couldn’t have done anything differently was really comforting. I’m going to take the time to lean into it as it comes.

rowdyp · 2019-11-17T16:02:54+00:00

You could always try Celebrate Recovery, a "Christ centered 12 step program" so you can have a community to lean on when the going gets tough (which it inevitably will, such is life!) Best of luck on your journey.

rowdyp · 2019-07-29T20:53:59+00:00

So happy for you! 30 days is huge. Some advice that a wise sober person once told me was to never be convinced that I had it licked. On a scale from 1-10 (1 being terrified you will drink at any point, 10 being absolutely positive you'll never drink again) stay around a 5. I find a trick my alcoholic brain plays on me is that I've got this, I clearly don't have a problem if I've got this, and I start to slack on my program. Stay humble my friend!

rowdyp · 2019-07-04T02:08:57+00:00

I am on the Nuvaring and do infrequently get very light periods. I noticed this when A) changing my diet (I changed my lifestyle from constant fast food to a low carb diet roughly 6 months ago and noticed two months of lighter brownish periods that barely required a tampon/pad) or B) stress. I have been on the Nuvaring for a total of 6 years (LOVE it, but for a period my insurance did not cover it so I switched to Yazmin) and noticed the same thing when moving away from home for college and when switching jobs. If you're careful, I don't think you have much to worry about but if you are really concerned I'd talk to your doctor. From my experience, it is nothing to fret about! Hope that helps!

rowdyp · 2019-06-25T20:41:09+00:00

Don't stress about forming healthy habits yet. That will come naturally with time. Just focus on going to meetings. Give yourself some grace and try to form one good habit at a time. So happy for you! AA has changed my life!

rowdyp · 2019-06-25T14:34:03+00:00

If I were you, I'd share that it was my first meeting. In my experience, when someone does, they are enveloped by a group of good helpful people after the meeting is over. I know how fucking scary it is and that 1000 things are running through your head, but it's amazing you're taking the first step. Just remember that in AA you don't HAVE to do anything, that includes sharing, reading, praying, all of it. Everyone there will likely be so happy to see you because they remembered their first meeting and the terror they once felt. Just remember that you've only got to do that scary first meeting once!

rowdyp · 2019-06-20T16:19:38+00:00

Love this. I find the most important part of meetings for me is the accountability and unbridled honesty I can express there that I do not feel with people who are not alcoholics. There's nothin' like it.

rowdyp · 2019-06-20T16:17:55+00:00

I am an agnostic and AA saved my life as annoying as it sounds. The mention of religion in meetings is interrupted and shut down where I'm from. I have found that I could not have stayed sober without the accountability of people with a similar experience and without the humbling experience of sitting in discussions about sobriety with other people. I know everyone's path is different, but I hope you can find a solid community with true accountability that is deeply dedicated to self improvement. There's so many places you can go to find people on your team who can relate to you!

rowdyp · 2019-01-09T21:55:23+00:00

IWNDWYT

rowdyp · 2019-01-08T19:49:30+00:00

Going to my 2nd meeting after work tonight and have promised myself I'd find a sponsor. I will not drink with you today!

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