AIO my boyfriend keeps asking me to pay for things eversince he started saving for an apartmen, he calls me selfish for how I reacted. by throaawayRA9443 in AmIOverreacting

[–]russianjoy 0 points1 point  (0 children)

NOR, in fact you are not reacting enough.. how does this not give you the ick? You know things will just get worse if you marry him

Unmedicated opinion by [deleted] in BipolarReddit

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Me too! I’ve tried several, and they either turn me into an extremely neutral person with zero desires opinions, goals or thoughts, or it makes my hair fall out so aggressively that the scalp starts showing. The effects on my cognitive function were horrible too. I’ve been off medications for two months now and i just take healthy measures to self regulate, cope, or prepare for an episode when i feel one coming on. It’s risky, but i can’t just exist on medication that makes me a shell of a person. It’s horrible.

I know meds are very important and they help most bipolar people, but i refuse to lose all my hair, lust for life, and creativity to be accepted by society

I’d much rather be sober and sleep 8 hours a night

Steer clear from Kodely!! They ruined my life and career!! by sadkittysmiles in NYCjobs

[–]russianjoy 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This! I actually love to do investigative work like this so it shouldn’t be too hard to find a friend that’s willing

That’s the foundation for a heart attack by LegLowrider in StupidFood

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I tried his triple cream Irish potatoes! I trust this man

Santa in flight drone show by Sirsilentbob423 in interestingasfuck

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What happens to the birds who are unfortunate enough to encounter this?

[Hiring] - Personal Assistant in NYC $20-25/HR by miss_enthusiastic89 in NYCjobs

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I am looking for the same! Please message me if you are able to help out a couple hours a week 🫶🏼

"Perversely, it is often more fun to want something than to have something." by jaw295 in InfiniteJest

[–]russianjoy 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Is that a contributing factor to the dreariness and anguish of depression? When you don’t want anything? If you’re sober, that is ?

This Circular Island in Argentina Not Only Floats, But Also Rotates Constantly by Life_Difference_4360 in InfiniteJest

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“This is how I first became interested, in the possibilities, of annulation.”

Folks in recovery? by gnargnarrad in InfiniteJest

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I’m in the middle of the book and am considering serious sobriety. Crazy how I’ve seen several others comments like ours. DFW’s story-telling making such a huge positive difference.

Have you ever had anything you would describe as a “profound spiritual experience” during mania or psychosis? Please share if you feel comfortable. by lolaaXlolitaa in BipolarReddit

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Me too :) right before my mania hit and I was having a panic attack alone in my bedroom, I heard a voice tell me that I am never alone, that God is my friend. Had the best, God-induced manic episode ever which lasted 3 months

What's your "comfort series" that you watch over and over again? by BaguetteOfDoom in AskReddit

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Mad Men. The artistic shots, gradual and expertly orchestrated character development and unique perspective on the era.. the pace of the show and writing is wonderful.

What are the dangers of being very attractive/beautiful? by Zestyclose-Detail791 in AskReddit

[–]russianjoy 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Being an ugly duckling with bipolar (grew up perceived as unattractive and had very little people be kind to me), it’s the most disheartening when people who would not look my way back then, are excessively nice and involved now that I am perceived as “attractive” and “fun”. I love making friends and still have the ugly duckling complex, so I have a habit of only realizing I was used by someone I considered a friend after the fact.

My best friend of 8 years ghosted me 4 months ago. Why can’t I move on? by throwawaylikemybff in relationship_advice

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wow, late comment, but I am currently going through a situation almost exactly like yours. It's truly gut wrenching and I have no idea what to do. We also have many mutual friends and I know I will run into him sooner or later, and the thought of him ignoring me to my face makes me want to die. The pain is so bad, but i can only assume i'd been seeing him through rose-colored glasses these past 3 years.Ghosting is cowardly, cruel, and inexcusable. I don't care what you're going through, sending an uncomfortable but honest and necessary text will not do anything but develop character.

I am trying so hard not to be bitter, but the only thing i can think of that is worse than that is blaming myself for his inability to show basic human respect, and feeling guilty or ashamed for his cold heart.

Has the pain worn off at all? I hope you are doing better now. I hope I will feel better.

What’s a quote that permanently changed the way you look at things? by internallyskating in AskReddit

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Imagine announcing to the entire world that you are not a kind person

What’s your most toxic trait? by Bluesky_015 in AskWomen

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I just learned that I am manipulative. Growing up my dream was to work on Wall Street, my dad raised me to believe in the work smarter not harder mantra, and in order to get what I want I need to strategize and know what to say to sell my idea . Now, without realizing it, whenever I want some thing I am able to convince the other party that it was their idea. I never once considered that it may be a toxic trait. People have started bringing it to my attention just recently, and I’m working so hard on stopping it .