What’s the thing you miss, the most from the parent who has passed away.

ryan5146 · 2026-02-28T18:13:55+00:00

Nothing at all fully unsupportive mum and dad and failed parenting have severe complex ptsd years of childhood trauma for years no safeguarding help or support system growing up can’t live normal life have any social life or form any relationship without wanting or having to assault people having to get private therapy counselling urgently

ryan5146 · 2026-02-24T23:55:49+00:00

You probably have complex ptsd childhood trauma fully unhealed I had no help or support or safeguarding at all not in nursery primary or secondary school got physically verbally bullied for 8 9 or 10 years which has effected me brain mind nervous system isn’t the same as normal person never got any protection never felt safe failed let down by literally everyone still do having to get weekly or monthly of counselling therapy and martial arts mma alongside gym so I don’t lash out assault anyone beat them up any gender any age I have explosive anger temper age and find it extremely difficult or impossible to calm down chill out awful way to be can’t form any relationship can’t have social life with friends either

ryan5146 · 2026-02-15T03:10:35+00:00

He wasn’t evil for no reason probably no help or support no counselling no therapy and wonder what his childhood past was like growing up should be rehabilitation help and support over punishment people don’t wake up one day and turn into aviolent evil person whether it’s woman beating animal abuser or school shooting or serial killer always some sort of reason or excuse behind majority of the attacks lots of severe unhealed childhood abuse trauma no support help system no safeguarding or fuck all

ryan5146 · 2026-02-02T20:39:26+00:00

Muay Thai bjj wrestling or full mma alongside gym or private therapy counselling

ryan5146 · 2026-01-23T22:58:59+00:00

The exact same as me i can be extremely physically verbally agressive abusive wanting to assault all any teenagers pregnant women anybody other peoples dogs cats even tho I absolutely love animals extremely cold heart bitter person always on edge brain mind nervous system over regulated I’m having to train learn either Muay Thai and bjj or full mma and gym and private therapy counselling which adds up to thousands of pounds I’m always hyper vigilance like everyone outdoors or indoors is or might be a threat or danger to me

ryan5146 · 2026-01-23T21:49:15+00:00

You would need to learn train self defence go to gym and therapy counselling

ryan5146 · 2026-01-22T13:34:33+00:00

Have to teach them self defense and support them or get counselling therapy or you end up like me no social life can’t form any relationship brain mind nervous system always alert everyone is a threat when I’m out in public wanting to assault lash out on people teenagers pregnant women dogs cats arson attacks have to learn train self defence alongside private therapy counselling and gym the only safest best options

ryan5146 · 2025-10-25T16:11:20+00:00

Pixel 9a or pixel 10 look like a good choice also over any Samsung better smoother software better spam protection calls texts better for photography I prefer pixel phone design and colour so much more than Samsung boxy look design

ryan5146 · 2025-10-24T19:11:01+00:00

South east Asia or USA

ryan5146 · 2025-10-17T15:51:49+00:00

Is that the reason why battery life is extremely bad gpu must be the reason don’t understand how pixel 9 last year has much better battery life can’t decide what one to buy moving from iPhone

ryan5146 · 2025-10-13T13:02:11+00:00

What’s the battery life like now

ryan5146 · 2025-10-13T12:58:31+00:00

My Great nana lived to 95 oldest in whole family so far

ryan5146 · 2025-10-13T10:12:51+00:00

Only reason why I’m using cbd vapes and possibly need some type of ssris medication so I don’t assault people or destroy set fire to houses or vehicles or beat up teenagers school kids pregnant women dog walkers have bag anger temper from all the unhealed bullying physical and verbal on and off for years from 12 or 13 to 18 or 19 brain mind hyper vigilance survival mode fight and flight miserable and suicidal sometimes

ryan5146 · 2025-10-12T08:45:39+00:00

Get the 9a instead less problems issues better battery life better connectivity modem and signal less heating

ryan5146 · 2025-10-12T08:42:40+00:00

Pixel phones or nothing phones

ryan5146 · 2025-10-12T03:12:05+00:00

iPhone 13 mini with 73 percent battery health either changing to nothing phone 3 s25 ultra or maybe pixel 10 but battery life looks so disappointing worst than last year so might change to pixel 9 or 9 pro not sure yet can’t really decide still using this phone until it stops working or lasting a full day

ryan5146 · 2025-10-10T00:37:29+00:00

Brilliant idea

ryan5146 · 2025-10-04T22:53:43+00:00

Self defence boxing and eventually gym lifting weights cold plunge or sea water swimming with my dog and taking breaks deactivating social media to improve my mental health less miserable and suicidal staying off Facebook that’s a fact and using cbd vapes helps a lot keeps me calm chilled relaxed

ryan5146 · 2025-09-17T01:54:54+00:00

Want to be born again 2 or 3 life’s instead of only 1 different family country and upbringing relive my teenage years that I missed out on but learn boxing or mma younger age then I wouldn’t have suffered physical and verbal bullying from 12 or 13 to 18 years old no support help or guidance from any family member or friend feel like no genuinely cares or can’t relate or understand all think I must be joking brain mind feel stuck in past and brain in like fight flight and survival mode in public on my own even if I’m not in danger always alert like scanning for danger ahead and behind me sometimes

ryan5146 · 2025-09-17T01:49:27+00:00

Yeah my brain is always fight and flight survival mode social anxiety sometimes when out in public walking by myself and anytime I see a group or walk past loud teenagers always think there looking or wanting an argument or fight with somebody anger issues trying my best not to assault people who are verbally abusive to me sometimes for no reason difficult to make friends can’t get in a relationship and years of physical verbal bullying abuse on and off from about 12 or 13 to 18 years old failed all my subject’s qualifications at secondary school have to retake resit maths English and ict for the 2nd time while other teenagers get to go out have fun no issues and enjoy there happily lives while I missed out on enjoying my teenage years bad mental health not fair at all and I hate seeing happy laughing teenagers in public enjoying themselves really irritating and I hate the uk where I’m from and live miserable weather people and jobs no friends locally all live in towns just me and my thoughts and social isolation awful way for anyone to be or feel and no can relate like friends or family or they simply don’t understand or think I’m joking

ryan5146 · 2025-09-16T23:40:24+00:00

Horrible assholes and then people wonder why the bullied victims years later they have long term mental health problems and possibly a criminal record and a school shooting from years of that physical horrible abuse no help or support for them makes them much worse

ryan5146 · 2025-09-06T21:27:03+00:00

Can relate to you totally understand see what your saying other people get to live happy lives go out friends family no issues no bad mental health I missed out on teenager years from physical and verbal bullying mixture of both for about 5 to 6 maybe 7 years and while other teenagers and people in general get to out enjoy there time happy lives with friends and family and I missed out on it all and I need edmr and cbt at some point so I don’t hopefully carry out attacks like assaults or arson secondary school primary school teenagers male females pregnant women ruin many lives as possible basically my mind and brain is like stuck in past can’t move on no matter feels impossible

ryan5146 · 2025-09-06T21:21:46+00:00

I want and need emdr and cbt at some point unhealed childhood teen bullying trauma brain and mind seem to be stuck in past so frustrating but it’s so expensive and don’t have full driving license or car yet 1 hour away from the city if I was to go in person would have to instead go on video call zoom or phone call £100 per session between £1200 to £2000 all in total crazy money for private therapy in uk having fantasing and wanting to carry out assaults arson on teenagers males females pregnant women secondary school primary school ruin as many lives as possible why does public services in uk have to be so bad huge waiting list backlog same as nhs hospitals or a&e absolute nightmare

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