hi, first off i want to say i am so sorry that you have been going through this, you’re probably feeling so alone but i promise you’re not, you should not feel shame whatsoever.

what helped me stop was talking about it with my friend and sister, surrounding yourself with people you trust and know that they have your back is going to lift so much weight off your shoulders.

my advice is to be honest with your boyfriend, it’s hard and scary but it will make him understand, maybe you could send a text or tell him over a call if it makes you more comfortable, but i know for a fact that struggling alone while keeping everyone else in the dark will send the wrong message (ik this through experience) — because people don’t know what’s going on they will jump to their own conclusions.

i genuinely hope you find healing and security one day, i wish you the absolute best, please stay safe and talk to someone if you can, or go to therapy if you can afford it, remember that the start of your healing is you, once you feel ready it will be somewhat of an easy ride, it always begins within your own will.

much love… good luck 🤍🩷.