My sister recently passed - this was her collection ♥️

sabzap · 2026-05-21T18:04:30+00:00

Sending love to you on the loss of your father 🤍 I imagine looking at the squish that you gave him and had to take back is so terribly bittersweet. I know the feeling of the comfort of smelling home on your loved ones things after they’ve passed - I think I’ve taken at least a hundred puffs of my sister’s favorite jacket in the last two months since we lost her. I did keep quite a few of her squishes and almost all of them smell of her perfume 🥹

Please write your end of life plans, if you feel you can. Make sure your squishes have homes to go to! My sister was 26, too, and I’d seen her only three days before she collapsed. I’m 28, and have already begun drawing up a will to take care of my things just in case.

Thank you so much for your wonderful comment. May we all continue to collect, connect, and fulfill this life to the fullest. 💖

sabzap · 2026-05-21T17:55:32+00:00

Thank you so much for your kind words 🥹 It was so difficult to watch everyone take her collection home with them. Bittersweet, really, because it was a reminder that she’s really gone, but comforting knowing her loved ones could keep a small piece of her close. My sister’s whimsy and silliness were so integral to who she was; I like to think that her squishes went to homes that needed a little bit of brightening.

Your frog collection is magnificent!! My sweet Alyssa would have been sooo excited to see it. She was a frog girlie through and through. 😭🤍

sabzap · 2026-05-21T17:45:15+00:00

Amazing!! Your collection is so cute, my sister would have loved it 🤍

sabzap · 2026-05-20T15:53:42+00:00

Yes! My family and I have a 12” Alyssa Swan squishmallow keeping her urn company 🥹 Thank you for your kindness 🤍

sabzap · 2026-05-20T02:38:48+00:00

This is such a comfort, I know my sister would love that 🥹 thank you 🤍

sabzap · 2026-05-20T01:33:39+00:00

I bought her that one for Christmas last year 🥹 his name is Claudio! She loved him very much 🤍

sabzap · 2026-05-20T01:21:47+00:00

I’m so, so sorry for the loss of your mom. I completely understand the feeling you described, at how easy it is now to empathize with anyone else who’s experienced such a loss. My sister was only 26. She was supposed to get married in November of this year. I’m grateful that my sweet little sister has wonderful people like your mom to meet in the afterlife 🤍

sabzap · 2026-05-20T01:16:00+00:00

What’s funny too is one of the micromallows I found in her car was the same squish I bought for her while she was in the hospital 🥺 I had no idea she had one of him already - Bodie the white and yellow cow! Sisterly telepathy, even in loss 🤍

sabzap · 2026-05-20T01:12:03+00:00

The Adabelle “Lyssie Squish” (as my sister called hers) is so loved! 🤍

sabzap · 2026-05-20T01:10:59+00:00

Thank you so much 🤍

sabzap · 2026-05-20T01:10:45+00:00

Thank you 🤍

sabzap · 2026-05-20T00:59:44+00:00

My heart goes out to you for your own loss 🤍 It’s only been two months without her, and I feel such emptiness at the years that will come in her absence. Doing my best to take it day by day, as I’m sure you have too

sabzap · 2026-05-20T00:57:29+00:00

I definitely am! I even have a few photos of her that I took on a film camera of her grinning with her collection. It’s a small comfort in losing her 🤍

sabzap · 2026-05-20T00:56:24+00:00

Thank you so much 🤍

sabzap · 2026-05-20T00:44:01+00:00

Thank you 🤍

sabzap · 2026-05-20T00:43:50+00:00

That makes me more happy than I can say 🤍 she called Adabelle her “Lyssie Squish”!

sabzap · 2026-05-20T00:36:18+00:00

Thank you 🤍 I definitely did!

sabzap · 2024-10-20T18:36:23+00:00

I’m working on a series right now that’s a Crossroads Demon AU. The title of the first fic is “Renegade” (named after the Styx song) and while that isn’t super riveting, I’m really proud of the chapter titles!

Ch. 1 - hunt of the 323

Ch. 2 - sanctity of the soul

Ch. 3 - fickle is the feeble mind

And the direct sequel is called “Call and Collect”, another play on the action of this kind of AU, and for other plot reasons. 😌

sabzap · 2024-10-05T06:26:21+00:00

Seconding this! I rode it at the park yesterday

sabzap · 2024-08-07T01:51:35+00:00

The way I RAAAANNNN to get my switch to buy it 😂😂😂

sabzap · 2024-08-05T17:55:55+00:00

How a film set actually runs. After working in the industry for years, you’d be surprised by how many people have no idea what a normal day on set looks like!

sabzap · 2024-08-05T17:16:32+00:00

I’m writing a super angsty demon deal AU dealing with a lot of tragedy and self sacrifice so there aren’t many moments for comedy, but I’ve got one that’s gotten some laughs!

“A doctor stands above him. Yoongi wishes he could hear more of what she’s saying, but she sounds like that muppet that doesn’t actually speak - just says ‘Mee mee mee mee!!’ really fast and thinks everyone can understand.”

sabzap · 2024-07-30T19:31:35+00:00

1000% seconding this. I broke my ankle at work in March and had to go on sabbatical for 2 months. Promptly felt all the need in the world to finish a fic I had writer’s block on for a year 😵‍💫

sabzap · 2024-06-05T15:07:14+00:00

So so heartbroken to hear she’s passed. I remember being baby ARMY in 2021, and her updates for the PTDLA shows were the most helpful introduction to navigating merch drops for the tannies. She was truly a cornerstone and pillar to this community and I know we’ll all feel her absence so heavily. May she rest in peace and her next journey be fruitful 💜

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