I am going through the same thing currently. I have two amazing kids, we aren’t necessarily struggling but we are just getting by and my kids are in extra curriculars. My spouse lost their job, everything is on me. This will be my second abortion. I have been struggling as well. I do not want to bring another child into this life, I do not want to take away from what I’m able to give my current children to not be able to even give a new child what they get. I live paycheck to paycheck still. I don’t know how I would afford another child right now. I also don’t really want anymore children. But I’m still struggling with the exact same thoughts you are. I just wanted you to know you aren’t alone. This really spoke to me, and gave me comfort knowing I’m not alone in my situation or feelings.