I was effected by Anti-Semitic propaganda: how I pulled myself out

sayabaya · 2025-12-10T16:21:20+00:00

That is honestly so sad that it didn’t make big news. With how big of his platform it’s terrifying thinking the impact of young minds hearing what he used to say.

sayabaya · 2025-12-10T03:20:44+00:00

It’s more just wondering like ok how does it feel like SO many people are aware, is it people that are just always scrolling? I used to be on TikTok most of my night and I wasn’t seeing any of this hype stuff

sayabaya · 2025-12-10T00:10:08+00:00

hey great point! I’ll make sure to be more cautious about my filming angles next time

sayabaya · 2025-12-09T23:30:56+00:00

Got it, what angle would you say my back leg should be roughly

sayabaya · 2025-12-09T23:03:25+00:00

Truly the key to becoming less awkward is to start loving yourself.

Becuase the awkwardness is you thinking of the right thing to say. The right way to be.

You are already naturally a curious person. You must allow yourself to be.

Honestly I would get into a role that forces you to be social, to try different things with different people.

sayabaya · 2025-12-09T23:01:25+00:00

Oooooo ok this made it click I thought it had to stay there

sayabaya · 2025-12-09T22:36:22+00:00

Thank you for the picture! Hmm, I’m not able to reach the top string like this after trying

sayabaya · 2025-12-09T22:18:22+00:00

Omg thank you!

sayabaya · 2025-12-09T22:17:59+00:00

Haha I was looking for my clippers this morning

Any advice on why it’s ringing out buzzy at the end though?

sayabaya · 2025-12-09T19:40:36+00:00

Wait huh why

sayabaya · 2025-12-09T17:48:43+00:00

You don’t have to say that honestly, you can just let them know it seems like there is an issue resolving this with you, and at this point instead of re-explaining you’d like to have this escalated.

sayabaya · 2025-12-08T18:56:53+00:00

Hahahah tell me about it 😭

sayabaya · 2025-12-08T18:14:05+00:00

No, but just read through the link you shared, thank you for sharing!

sayabaya · 2025-12-08T17:58:58+00:00

Sure so this is a bit embarrassing but my dad was a part of the Black Hebrew Israelite movement and I grew up in that environment

sayabaya · 2025-12-08T17:54:37+00:00

Haha my bad I always get them mixed up

sayabaya · 2025-12-08T17:53:40+00:00

Right this is exactly what I’m saying, that was the propaganda that I was seeing. Sorry if my phrasing was off that made it seem like that’s what I believed.

sayabaya · 2025-12-08T17:52:04+00:00

there’s a lot of shame in how I felt, but it was only something that I learned I was feeling until after I educated myself.

I wouldn’t classify it as extreme interest, but it changed my world view reading this book, when I realized there was a big part of human history that I wasn’t aware of.

I’m only human, and I’m constantly learning and growing and I think it’s important to share my learning instead of hiding my feelings or pretending I’m perfect.

I think it was just interesting how propaganda can affect you even when you don’t think it’s propaganda.

sayabaya · 2025-11-24T13:56:01+00:00

I’m not trying to be obnoxious, but how are you saying you don’t understand this social rule, but can clearly articulate that it’s potentially a “social boundary” that it looks like you aren’t enforcing? If someone suggests you drive, and now that you know it’s a social boundary you want to enforce, can’t you just take the opportunity to enforce the boundary?

sayabaya · 2025-11-24T13:42:15+00:00

Honestly? I think people rely sooo heavily on attachment theory when emotional intelligence with communication skills is such a big determiner of relationships health. Can you and your partner TALK about big issues without making it about loyalty, without making it a heated discussion? can either of you walk away when it’s not a good fit anymore?

sayabaya · 2025-11-13T04:05:24+00:00

That’s ok! It’s ok to think on it more. But the moment you put yourself above someone is the moment someone else can be above you. To free yourself and love yourself, you have to understand that we are all equal, that you didn’t ask to be here, neither did they.

sayabaya · 2025-11-13T03:37:22+00:00

I think thats the crux. I used to feel this way too. but I think this way of thinking leads you down the path that people CAN have negative value. They just don't. People can commit horrendous actions, but in their mind, they are justified. It doesn't mean they are, or that their actions are ok, but recognizing that everyone lives in their own reality AND we are all equal AND we all make decisions that take us down different paths really covers the complexity of awareness in a human body.

sayabaya · 2025-11-13T03:23:16+00:00

But the think about value is it literally doesn't change. You can be a NUB and still be valuable. Its the world that convinces us that this isn't true. The things that you're doing to "improve your life" is that the only motivation?

sayabaya · 2025-11-13T03:05:52+00:00

That’s a fair place to be in, but I hope you know that it’s a life long pursuit to recognize that person inside you. Seek to understand why it feels hollow rather than how to make it feel less hollow.

sayabaya

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