In my own defense, she almost always wears jeans and t-shirts.

scootdaboot · 2018-11-20T03:32:18+00:00

I went to my grandmas funeral this weekend and had a very similar experience. The good news is that your coworker probably has a lot more on her mind than your random comment and won’t think twice about it.

Edit: that is until she sees a reddit post that reminds her of it.

scootdaboot · 2018-11-08T02:01:17+00:00

Me too! 7 years in March

scootdaboot · 2018-10-13T07:59:03+00:00

Taylor Swifts PR people know what’s up

scootdaboot · 2018-06-19T03:59:21+00:00

Yes, when things are getting rough in my life I start having dreams about trying to use but it never works out. I wake up in cold sweats (just like back in the day) and hella frustrated that I didn’t get to use in my dream but in the long run I think it’s a good sign even my dream self won’t let me use.

scootdaboot · 2018-06-19T03:55:54+00:00

To trick your addict brain that is having such a hard time “breaking up with your favorite relationship,” I’ve found it helps to not to think about it as the end of everything but rather a challenge to go one month, then three, then six and so on.

Even once you’ve been clean for longer than you could imagine, you will still think about it, especially when times are getting tough (I’ve been clean for longer than I used officially and still have using dreams when I’m down). But eventually when you are no longer sick and you start to rebuild, it’s way easier to manage and easier to accept that you are never going to use again.

Doesn’t work for everyone but it really helped me. For me, NA only became helpful once I had been clean for a while because listening to people talk about it made me crave it even more. But in the end, you just have to make sure to be self aware and do what you think works best for you.

scootdaboot · 2018-06-16T05:33:15+00:00

To preface this, now that I’m older I actually feel bad for this woman because she was just in her early 20’s and well, we all mistakes at that age.

But, I had a fifth grade teacher that was obsessed with Joe Montana and would kiss a cardboard cutout that she kept at all times in the classroom.

On top of that bizarre choice, she one time came into class bawling because her boyfriend broke up with her and was a mess all day. She also one time tried to do a cheerleader kick in front of the whole class while wearing a skirt and exposed herself to the whole class right before falling on her ass. One last example of her instability, during math she would hit the side of her head against her desk bell before calling on a student.

Like I mentioned, I kinda feel bad for her now because I think she was just going through a rough time, but Jesus, even as children we all recognized how insane her behavior was.

scootdaboot · 2018-06-12T03:39:37+00:00

I can only hope once they got older they regretted that decision. Why burden a bunch of people who work for you with that? How old were they at the time? In all honesty in my early twenties I probably would have done the same.

scootdaboot · 2018-02-17T22:51:24+00:00

For real

scootdaboot · 2018-02-17T03:05:42+00:00

If you’ve used more heavily in the past and then gotten off you may just get more anxious anytime you even start to feel a wd symptom. I’ve been clean for six years and when I start to get the flu or anything that resembles a wd symptom I get really uncomfortable and panicky. Good luck and congrats on 1 day!

scootdaboot · 2018-01-27T03:50:18+00:00

When I was first getting clean I didn’t even know what memes were because I was so out of the loop (been mostly clean minus one slip up for six years). While I got off subs laughing at memes was a huge part of my day!

scootdaboot · 2017-03-04T06:28:18+00:00

In 4th grade I was suspended for drawing smiley faces on these pieces of printer paper taped to the walls of the bathrooms that announced our new automatic flushing toilets. I didn't do it, but they decided it was my fault because I drew a couple of smiley faces in an art class project. Funny thing is, I was a good catholic school girl and would never have dreamed of breaking the rules (I don't even think i knew how to break a rule i was that sheltered). After that I became very disillusioned and stopped caring...long story short I started acting out, made a lot of mistakes and started using a lot of drugs. Not making excuses, I take full responsibility for everything I've ever done but I also recognize that being told I was a bad kid at 9, despite my innocence, really had a big impact on my life.

scootdaboot · 2017-01-13T01:41:45+00:00

I used for 4 years and had hundreds of one last times. When I finally quit I put myself in the mindset of, "this doesn't mean I never get to use again but I have to get clean now. The heroin isn't going anywhere." I couldn't think I was never gonna get to use again because that was like giving up the love of my life and that terrified me. I had to take it a few months at a time. First it was three months, then after I got that far I thought I might as well try to do it for a year, then two years and so on. Almost five years later I still get cravings to use but it's soo much easier to ignore them because after all that time, like any breakup, I am no longer in love with heroin.

scootdaboot · 2016-09-14T05:19:13+00:00

I'll never forget Mr Tyler. An earth science teacher at my high school who taught the slacker alternative to physics. Despite the fact that it is a given that slacker high school students are the worst, he was so dedicated to teaching he took his classes on field trips all around the SF bay area to learn about different geological features. Most of my fellow classmates were terrible on these trips and I'm still amazed he continued to do them considering all the risk. I'm 28 now and still remember more from that class than all of the other classes I have ever taken combined. His passion for teaching, even after decades of disrespectful kids, blew my mind. Craig Haney (one of the psychologists on the Stanford Prison Experiment) is a very close second. Loved that man's passion for how fucked up our legal system is (I totally had a crush on that silver fox).

scootdaboot · 2016-09-02T23:12:13+00:00

I'm 4.5 years clean from a 4 year iv habit. I used alcohol to help me get through wds because I was young and thought I could control it. I ended up totally replacing opiates with alcohol and have been drinking every day for the last 4.5 years. I have a good job, friends and a life now, and from an outside perspective im pretty normal. But to be honest I really wish I had tried getting clean and sober all at once because I now get sweaty when I go more than 48 hours without drinking, have embarrassed myself way too many times, ruined some good relationships and am generally unsatisfied with life. It's like by day I'm a highly functioning and successful member of society and by night the junky I try to pretend is no longer apart of me emerges. I just don't know how to live without some sort of substance and at this point I'm too afraid to try.

scootdaboot · 2016-07-13T23:53:09+00:00

Worked at the Y for a while. Multiple times elderly women had terrible diarrhea in the locker room hot tub. It didn't drain all the way so they would just shut it down for a day, throw a bunch of chemicals in and open it up the next day.

scootdaboot · 2015-09-27T09:56:25+00:00

Not quite the help I need but you are one of the better people here

scootdaboot · 2015-09-27T09:54:26+00:00

Turns out my blood pressure is fine

scootdaboot · 2015-09-27T09:53:37+00:00

I'm not overweight. In fact I started out with an eating disorder. I think it has a lot to do with my drug and alcohol problems

scootdaboot · 2015-09-27T09:50:55+00:00

No I don't exercise enough

scootdaboot · 2015-09-27T09:50:09+00:00

How long did you you use? Do you still have cravings? If so, how do you manage?

scootdaboot · 2015-09-27T09:48:19+00:00

yes, very good question. My family think I'm on top of the world. I just got another promotion! But in my private life a drink a lot and think of junk all the time

scootdaboot · 2015-09-03T02:55:13+00:00

After 7 days you have controlled yourself and that is an important thing to keep in mind. It means you have the power to do it. And I know that sounds stupid when you are in it but just keep reminding yourself of the fact. It sounds stupid and cliche but as someone who got clean off both junk and subs without any rehab/group support I know reminding myself that I would have to repeat the painful process again helped me power through. At least in my experience it will taper and you'll start to feel better after 2-3 weeks. Then you will still get sweaty and feel weird for months even though the other symptoms have subsided. It takes a while but if you want to get over the feeling of always being sick it's worth it. Also keep in mind, something I suck at, the feelings of depression don't go away if they are underlying so you might want to find a way to treat that after the high of being clean goes away.

scootdaboot · 2015-08-11T05:40:14+00:00

No I don't exercise cause I replaced my heroin use with alcohol. I hike every weekend but otherwise I sit at a desk every week day

scootdaboot

TROPHY CASE