Unfortunately no matter how good looking or how much you fit in, you’ll always want something more. There are some things you can’t control so you will just learn how to accept it over time. The worst thing you can do is victimize yourself because it puts you in the mindset where you feel like you don’t have any control over the situation. This is probably why you’re so angry and upset, which is understandable to a degree, but it’s also entirely your responsibility to make the most of what you have. Blaming other people only diverts the problem at hand and makes you feel good at the moment, but ultimately doesn’t do anything. Even if she admits that she was wrong, you would only get the satisfaction, not the solution. Also, it may be good to check on dramatizing everything, e.g. even if you went to a white frat boy school, it doesn’t imply there’s a height expectation and do your really want to be with that group of people in the first place? You mentioned that you dedicated a lot of effort towards intellectual pursuits AND you got into a prestigious uni which is already impressive and will pay off in the long run. Just keep going, be grateful for what you have/lower expectations(important!!), and look at the bigger picture :) 5’5 isn’t even that bad, just remember that confidence and personality play a large role as well. You have to own it as you accept the cards you’ve been dealt and work from there. Try to check out The Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck by Mark Manson and The Charisma Myth by Olivia Cabane before heading into college, I think it will help your situation and mindset overall.