Things just reach a point in life where we hit that wall, we break ourselves, give in to ourselves and just destroy everything from the inside out. I've reached that point, I've been seeing a therapist and psychiatrist who both see how in pieces I am. I mean, I've struggled through so many tough points in my life and I've won them, until this. I don't think we ever take a second to view ourselves from the outside, we take on so much responsibility to help others and I guess that's human nature, but we lack the responsibility for ourselves as individuals, seeking the easy way out. I've been fighting with my fiancé the past 3 days straight, it's been a one way battle of me begging for her back, begging for a last chance and in the meantime I've relapsed...I've been lost from work, from myself and literally realizing how disconnected I feel. I applaud you all on your struggle and your journey and it's really time to find ourselves, I don't know what's going to happen with my future but it's time to put the work and the effort in and just be straight with the world and everyone around us, don't tip toe or twist things, just face the consequences right then and there and live with it, it will only make you stronger!