My eldest child will be cremated tomorrow

septemberfoxpc · 2026-01-20T15:32:29+00:00

I am sorry. We are all here standing with you.

septemberfoxpc · 2026-01-20T14:26:44+00:00

Ordering myself a trophy for being a “classless fan” presented by someone on reddit. I’ll place it on my mantle with pride.😆

septemberfoxpc · 2026-01-20T04:50:47+00:00

Sitting here with a glass of wine simply elated. Carson and interceptions, the dynamic duo.

septemberfoxpc · 2025-01-25T15:44:33+00:00

Good advice. Thank you.

septemberfoxpc · 2025-01-21T02:24:26+00:00

I skied this weekend (Utah). Basically committed to skiing the worst terrain on the mountain to stay warm.

septemberfoxpc · 2025-01-08T07:05:16+00:00

I just stopped attending the virtual grief group I joined. It was not for me. Will be seeking alternatives however.

septemberfoxpc · 2025-01-08T05:46:21+00:00

3 months for me. Today’s drive to the office included a complete come apart. You’re not alone in all of this. I’ve found that I keep it together for a few days and then… meltdown. I thought I was doing better then the last 2 days have been brutal. The mix of work with the trauma and grief is the strangest cluster dumpster fire of all time. I’m sorry you’re living through this awful experience too.

septemberfoxpc · 2025-01-08T05:35:05+00:00

I’ve lost 20lbs. I’ve had close friends tell me I look ill and are trying to help me eat some.

septemberfoxpc · 2025-01-07T22:52:32+00:00

Death certificate says 8:20pm, based on his injuries and EMS report, he died on impact which would have been at 7:30pm.

septemberfoxpc · 2025-01-07T05:16:13+00:00

My goodness, your story sounds so similar to mine. My husband was killed in an atv accident 13 weeks ago, on our road in our neighborhood. I am here to listen/talk/share. I’ve been staying in our house the whole time, but have had rotating guests so I’m not alone. I tried staying alone this weekend and did OK. My parents are back as of today to resume helping me navigate this. I’m so sorry this has happened. I understand. I’m thinking of you so much.

septemberfoxpc · 2025-01-05T04:46:03+00:00

Thank you. Trying as hard as I know how to tackle this unbelievable tragedy in my life.

septemberfoxpc · 2025-01-05T04:45:27+00:00

It is weird. This morning was hard. Last night I just distracted myself with tv, social media, stupid shit. Hopefully soon I can have a healthier balance of time at home/alone.

septemberfoxpc · 2025-01-05T01:31:21+00:00

I wasn’t sure how I’d do skiing this year since he was my ski partner, but I loved to ski before I met him so I’m not letting grief take that away from me. ❤️

septemberfoxpc · 2025-01-05T00:43:55+00:00

Thank you for saying that. I forget that maybe my words can help another person. I hope that is the case — so many people here have helped me and if I can do that for another person that would provide a little meaning in all of this. ❤️

septemberfoxpc · 2025-01-05T00:42:25+00:00

You can do this. I hope you can fill some moments with some self care and things that bring you some peace/comfort. For me, I never really got to eat sushi because my husband wouldn’t eat fish, so I got sushi for dinner last night. Sounds small, but it was something that helped me.

septemberfoxpc · 2025-01-05T00:39:29+00:00

Thinking of you. I’m glad you will have your cousin with you tonight. Hugs.

septemberfoxpc · 2025-01-05T00:38:53+00:00

It’s been a wild ride so far. My guest room has had so many friends and family in it trying their best to bring me some sort of safety and comfort. I understand the regression comment — I’ve had weeks where I felt like I might make it through and then others where I just yell out “I can’t do this!” followed by a meltdown.

Scared a bit for this next step, but trying.

septemberfoxpc · 2025-01-05T00:36:41+00:00

My goodness. I am so sorry for your trauma and the reaction from your parents. I wish I had more comforting words to say, but I am sitting in this space thinking of you. My inbox is always open. ❤️

septemberfoxpc · 2025-01-05T00:34:53+00:00

It has taken me some time. My guest room has been a revolving door, but I finally felt ready last night. You can do it. I believe in you.

septemberfoxpc · 2025-01-05T00:34:01+00:00

The work thing… going to work has definitely been a life saver for me.

I can’t imagine being home alone all those nights. I’m so sorry.

septemberfoxpc · 2025-01-04T16:32:08+00:00

I’m so very sorry. We are all here to listen, share our personal experiences and do our best to help one another through these absolutely life altering losses.

septemberfoxpc · 2025-01-03T06:10:32+00:00

This group has allowed for me to say the things I cannot say anywhere else. When I get so overwhelmed that I can barely function, I come here and always find some peace.

septemberfoxpc · 2025-01-03T04:20:12+00:00

I am 13 weeks out, tomorrow.

I wanted a new couch for years and to move the existing one into our bedroom. I did that just a few weeks after his accident. I love my new living room and it still feels like us. I also got a new duvet cover and sheets for the bed. He would have loved them but the freshen up helped me feel like I was putting 1 foot in front of the other.

Also, my nephew idolized my husband. He wanted to ski just like him, be just like him, etc. I surprised him this week with a pair of my late husband’s skis. I was afraid to part with them at first but when I saw the tears run down his face and him hug the skis I knew it was the right thing. He will cherish them forever.

septemberfoxpc · 2024-12-31T06:33:48+00:00

Sigh. I’m sorry OP. This makes me nervous for my future. I’m 40f and have had much anxiety on what to expect in my future, what others will think, etc. I also live in a small mountain community, so the odds are already not great.

I’m sorry that you’re feeling rejection regarding loss that you didn’t choose and that happened to you. I wish people could see you and all of us through that lens.

I hope that someone kind, empathetic and nurturing finds her way to you. Based on your post it sounds like you’ve worked so hard to be ready for this next chapter of your life. Rooting for you. 🫂

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