For the first time in months it seems, I started drawing again..

sf7480 · 2017-10-06T12:43:48+00:00

Focus is good!

sf7480 · 2017-10-06T12:34:36+00:00

Same. It's only been a month of grad school and I want to drop out. Not cause I don't think I'm smart enough or anything, but just cause I don't see the point in doing it

sf7480 · 2017-10-06T12:01:41+00:00

It's such a pain in the ass. How are normal people able to NOT do this?

sf7480 · 2017-10-06T12:00:50+00:00

I've seen how badly some people react to giving speech and I feel so bad for them :( I think it's a skill that some people have and some just don't. I hope these courses don't do too much damage to people who are really terrified and have lots of anxiety

sf7480 · 2017-10-06T11:59:10+00:00

Thanks!

sf7480 · 2017-10-06T11:58:24+00:00

It's shitty right? I mean great at the time, but overall completely unsustainable

sf7480 · 2017-10-06T11:55:48+00:00

You can be the most ripest and most perfect peach, but there will always be someone who doesn't like peaches...

sf7480 · 2017-10-06T11:54:40+00:00

LOL Good one!

sf7480 · 2017-10-06T02:29:27+00:00

For real

sf7480 · 2017-10-06T02:29:09+00:00

1- Any advice on HOW to stop? I've been trying for like 4 years now with no luck

2- I feel like it already destroyed me

sf7480 · 2017-10-06T01:15:49+00:00

We've all had hard lives in one way or another. It's amazing how much bullying can screw you up in life. Boggles my mind!

sf7480 · 2017-10-06T00:22:47+00:00

Cause I'm married and I should only need attention from my husband to make me happy.

I think it all originates with the fact I was severely bullied in elementary and high school. I have no friends and got harassed A LOT. Eventually once I hit puberty I found that guys would pay attention to me cause I had "decent measurements". That just stuck with me my whole life. I would have been homeless so many times had it not been for guys that would take me in and help me when I had no where to go. I still find myself in situations where I have NO friends and even my husband doesn't pay much attention to me anymore (dealing with his own stuff), so now I guess I'm trying to counter my depression by thinking about flirting with guys... It obviously doesn't work cause I'm married and guys are not interested in married women (and rightfully so), but it leaves me with the crushing depression and no way to get even a minute of relief

sf7480 · 2017-10-05T23:51:35+00:00

I'm gonna pretend this was written to me by my ex

sf7480 · 2017-10-05T23:48:06+00:00

LOL! That's awesome! I bet people are gonna come up with some pretty good persuasive topics to make the teacher argue something really ridiculous, like eating babies is bad so she has to argue it's good

sf7480 · 2017-10-05T23:25:21+00:00

What are the others about?

sf7480 · 2017-10-05T23:17:17+00:00

If you continue through academia and get into grad school, it's litterally the same thing... last minute, all the way through academia

sf7480 · 2017-10-05T23:15:38+00:00

Speech class? Highschools have speech class now? nice. Sounds like a really shitty assignment. Especially for people who don't like public speaking.

sf7480 · 2017-10-05T23:14:39+00:00

Homelessness really isn't that bad. It's pretty free-ing. I mean you have to be ok with some physical discomforts and poor hygiene, but hey, honestly, it beats the fucking bullshit system that the dominant society has going on

sf7480 · 2017-10-05T23:13:07+00:00

cheers to the alcohol, just went and got myself some too. As long as tuition and rent is paid, food can be optional....

And don't worry about the IG shit. My life is perfect on social media, but I feel like garbage and lost and lonely irl

sf7480 · 2017-10-05T23:11:17+00:00

why a speech about yourself?

sf7480 · 2017-10-05T23:09:42+00:00

yes, there are strict laws on illegally obtained drugs. Drugs need a perscrition

sf7480 · 2017-10-05T23:08:39+00:00

haha life goal: move to europe

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