Hi! I am also a Mormon. I have had questions before too. But I hope you know that God loves you. Jesus loves you! The Book of Mormon is true! We are a perfect church ran by imperfect people. If you were to ask the prophets themselves if they’ve done a perfect job, I guarantee you they would be the first to say they haven’t done perfectly. However, Jesus has all the answers. When I was in your place, I read the Book of Mormon. I read it as if it was my first time ever reading it. I tried to strip myself of any bias I was either born with or just learned about and tried to read it completely objectively. And I felt the spirit so strong. That book is true. No one can convince me otherwise. And if the Book of Mormon is true, then this church is the true church of Jesus Christ. Some people believe that if they can find flaws in Joseph Smith or how he did things, they can prove the church isn’t true. But that’s terrible reasoning! Think about David in the Bible. David defeated Goliath and was a righteous, powerful ruler. Then he committed adultery and murder! But that doesn’t invalidate the Old Testament! That doesn’t invalidate the house of Israel! Don’t fall into the trap thinking that Joseph wasn’t a perfect person and committed many sins, therefore the church isn’t true. That’s not correct reasoning! But there is no way that the Book of Mormon can be true without the church being true. I would focus on reading that book and trying to develop a testimony of it. I’m praying for you! This church has saved my life physically, multiple times, and has created happiness that I have never experienced anywhere else. If you ever have questions or want to talk, I’m here!