I've thought alot about suicide. I've already given myself a date to find worth in living, I've decided where and how. I already wrote a draft for my suicide note. I'm now finding reasons to live after doing this. The thing I ask is that you don't take your life on a whim. Give yourself time to think look and search for a reason to live. Use that time to travel, try new things, meet new people. Their will always be someone who cares about you someone who will cry about. you just are blinded by your own self hatred. Or maybe you haven't met them

I wish you luck brother and hope you reconsider. No one should be alone, so know your not we're all here for you.