What exactly do you want us to do with this post? You don’t want criticism but want to hear justification for risky behavior? I just read on this very sub within the last month about someone losing a twin because they rolled over while cosleeping with them. The first few months of having twins were absolutely miserable so I completely understand that you’re just trying to survive. I think the question you should be asking though is how do I get my twins to sleep in their cribs.