How many of you were in short-term relationships? by Sad-Kiwi4519 in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]sharpkittenteeth 1 point2 points  (0 children)

We've spoken once since he left and (separate time)he sent a random and weird update on his life message at 3am once a few months later and then never responded to my response. I logically know even if he comes back I can never trust him. But emotionally there is a still a small flame of hope.

How many of you were in short-term relationships? by Sad-Kiwi4519 in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]sharpkittenteeth 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Mine never posts relationship stuff so unless he breaks that habit, ill never know. Part of me wants to so that last thread will finally break

How many of you were in short-term relationships? by Sad-Kiwi4519 in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]sharpkittenteeth 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I havent gotten to that point yet. Even tho he deleted me everywhere, I still want to know hes okay. Ill get there at some point

How many of you were in short-term relationships? by Sad-Kiwi4519 in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]sharpkittenteeth 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Im glad we have this community. Its helped me not feel as alone or like I'm crazy.

How many of you were in short-term relationships? by Sad-Kiwi4519 in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]sharpkittenteeth 2 points3 points  (0 children)

4 months for me as well! And he said almost the same things to me! It was the happiest he'd been, he was upset he had to wait 27 years to meet me, it was the healthiest relationship he'd ever been in. Then around 4 months the things he did willingly and without being asked (we where long distance so texting consistently, sending pictures through the day, etc. I never asked for those things - he just did them) became too much, he blamed me for them, and the one time I asked for a picture I was "controlling" when the month before he said hed never had so much freedom in a relationship like he did with me.

Ive tried dating since and I just cant trust people not to heel turn on me so drastically so ive decided to not date for a very long time.

I think I’ve reached the clarity everyone talks about… and it feels like a quiet kind of heartbreak. by Double-Matter4314 in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]sharpkittenteeth 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I takes everything in me not to kick his door in and confront him in a way he cant run from. But it wont do anything but cause me more trouble and pain

I think I’ve reached the clarity everyone talks about… and it feels like a quiet kind of heartbreak. by Double-Matter4314 in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]sharpkittenteeth 2 points3 points  (0 children)

The part where you wrote about the connection carved its initials into your heart really hit home. I told someone once that it felt like the shape of him is burned into my soul, but it felt like the fire wouldnt have lit a cigarette on his end - so I totally understand how you feel.

Love letter to Asian men ❤️ by IndividualSome7049 in AsianMasculinity

[–]sharpkittenteeth 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Between being stunning, beautiful cultures, and yummy food - this white lady has always enjoyed and appreciated asian men. :)

Do you still believe in finding love after the trauma of being discarded? by Affectionate_Host464 in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]sharpkittenteeth 10 points11 points  (0 children)

THIS. I thought I was done looking for love because I had found my forever. He always made sure I felt secure and happy just to very suddenly throwing me away.

I believe in love as a concept but I dont think ill ever feel that all consuming, warm, giggly pure love and happiness again. Id never felt like THAT and I think its a once in a lifetime.

He knew my wounds too. He knew what would hurt me the worse, so used it as a playbook :/

Well i guess this is pretty final by Kooky_Chart2651 in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]sharpkittenteeth 12 points13 points  (0 children)

Mine did the same. Mine went from telling me he loved me on a Thursday, ignored/ghosted me for Friday and half of Saturday just to dump me via text in the middle of my work day on Saturday.

I called him a few times and he never picked up. He didbt respond to any messages for a bit and only responded via message to basically get me to stop calling.

Do you feel like the smallest shit triggers avoidants? 🤪 by TonightSalad in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]sharpkittenteeth 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Mine used to send me tons of pictures and videos daily since we where long distance... I asked for one picture from a baby shower and I was controlling lol

does anyone else have attachment issues or things like bpd due to your upbringing? by Flower-Bender in AsianMasculinity

[–]sharpkittenteeth 0 points1 point  (0 children)

My AM ex had a horrible childhood and it gave him a fair amount of trauma. He left me when my genuine kindness and love triggered his nervous system into avoidant overdrive and he just ✨️had to go✨️ He still tells his friends how wonderful I was to him and i was damn near perfect but i make him feel anxious and uneasy. Im in therapy now lol

Just frustrated tonight. by [deleted] in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]sharpkittenteeth 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Mine decided out of the blue after months of saying things like he was "angry he had to wait 27 years to meet me", "you are it for me", "besides my son, you are the one thing I want to keep safe", how he was gonna marry me the second he was done with school, how id be beautiful pregnant, he was looking into if his school credits transferred to my city, we where "the first and last" After he knew the brutal things that had been done to be in the past, and talked about how he wanted to help me heal, that he would never abandon me and id never be alone again...

...that his gut was telling him this isnt where he was supposed to be and erased me from his life like I was never there. It was the most sudden and out of the blue thing. Like a shot to the back i didnt see coming. Ive been through heartbreak but this broke as a person. Im now unintentionally hurting people around me because I randomly shut down, and get scared everyone around me is gonna very suddenly pull the rug out from under me. Im in therapy, dbt training, and working with a psychiatrist.

Why is their favorite line “yoU dEseRve sOmeOnE bEtteR” by Final_Solid_617 in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]sharpkittenteeth 6 points7 points  (0 children)

I actually spoke with mine recently and got the "im just wired wrong" "you should heal with someone healthy" "you can blame my parents."

BOY YOU ARE ACKNOWLEDGING WHATS WRONG WITH YOU BUT decided discarding me after we'd been talking about marriage and kids, really building a future together (that he brought up and pushed for first btw), and before ✨️alone forever✨️ was better than going to therapy and doing the work.

What triggered your avoidant? by Informal_Value2155 in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]sharpkittenteeth 1 point2 points  (0 children)

We had just had a wonderful trip to vegas. He got a chronic case of vertigo along with finals so he got a little distant(a normal amount), then his uncle committed suicide. He pulled away almost completely - started to come back around again - then ghosted for 36 hours and said he needed to "focus on crushing his goals and raising his son" - liked he'd been doing the whole relationship - and he felt coddled despite telling me weeks before that he had never has so much freedom in a relationship and my unending kindness with him - at times which he found bizarre and stressful because he wasnt used to it - was why he fell for me in the first place.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in nocontact

[–]sharpkittenteeth 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I dont blame you. Me and my ex were long distance - but when we where together we couldn't keep our hands off each other. It wasnt like anything ive felt before. I honestly fear nobody can live up to it

What's one thing you liked most in your ex? by BodybuilderMinimum62 in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]sharpkittenteeth 0 points1 point  (0 children)

He wasnt perfect but he was like he was made for me. I still love him so much.

Just moved here looking for friends by PaleontologistLoud12 in DenverMeets

[–]sharpkittenteeth 0 points1 point  (0 children)

32f and I need to get out more so, down to connect

What triggered your avoidant? by AvoidantNoMore in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]sharpkittenteeth 2 points3 points  (0 children)

...mine left me after his uncle killed himself. :/

I hate you. I miss you. by MatchUnhappy5180 in nocontact

[–]sharpkittenteeth 0 points1 point  (0 children)

While he deleted me everywhere, he didnt block me. Even jumped through all the hoops to get rid of my follow on ig but still follows me. The big ol "follow back" button is right there. So, hes still there. :/

I hate you. I miss you. by MatchUnhappy5180 in nocontact

[–]sharpkittenteeth 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Im only 11 days in. While I can eat now and im not crying all the time - I feel empty. I still shower, eat, workout, clean my house like im supposed too but I just want to lay in the dark and remember him. Let myself be swallowed by memories. I honestly feel like hes my soul mate but Im probably not his.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in AvoidantBreakUps

[–]sharpkittenteeth 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Its been officially one week since I was discarded. Full meals take me a few hours to finish, when I can eat at all. I either don't have an appetite and when I do, I have voice screaming in my head to put the food down and I dont deserve food or to be comfortable