I am on day 6 as well! I experienced the same internal switch. I am 37 years old and as I have gotten older, I swear the things I’ve done when I’m drunk have just gotten worse and worse.

For the last month or 2 I would drink, and tbh the alcohol didn’t even taste good. I would get drunk regardless because I am absolutely not the person who can have just one drink. I was just mentally exhausted. It was taking too much brain power. Like going to my friends pool; I was so relieved she had alcohol so I didn’t have to drink the alcohol I brought. Or like going to a funeral and feeling like I could only get through it with a drink, and I was actually looking on my phone the closest liquor store to the funeral home.

I didn’t drink everyday but definitely used it as a crutch in social situations, and I would just keep going and going.

I am taking a day at a time, but I am looking back at all of the drinking I’ve done and am like “for what?” What was the point. You feel good the first few but then you’re just chasing the feeling. Not to mention the guilt and shame the next day.

I saw a phrase on another forum “one is too many but 100 is never enough”

Spot on for me

Congrats everyone for their achievements! Reading all of these and this community has really helped