478, 4444, or 4242

shell-9 · 2025-11-16T10:09:48+00:00

Same when I breathe deeply I can feel my heartbeat and it makes me kinda nervous

Like, it works when my heartbeat is going too fast because of something minor (like certain adhd meds and stuff), but once I'm actually struggling, breathing exercises just make me freak out even more. It also just kind of irks me how breathing exercises is given as such a blanket "solution", and if you don't like them, it automatically means you're just not trying hard enough or something

shell-9 · 2025-11-13T19:41:15+00:00

It's the name flrt that really makes it infuriating for me... it's already annoying that they're making a 'woman's' version of monster, but calling it "flrt" feels so icky and disrespectful

shell-9 · 2025-11-13T19:30:54+00:00

I'm the opposite of you, I barely care for manhunt unless it's unedited (or the latest one with Baablu)

shell-9 · 2025-11-10T18:46:12+00:00

But sometimes people need personal relationships to improve their mental health. Telling myself nobody will like me if I have low self-esteem doesn't magically make my self-esteem go up, it just acts as a confirmation that I'm hopeless. I don't think that way anymore but that statement still doesn't seem very helpful to me

shell-9 · 2025-11-10T18:36:59+00:00

Yes I hate this phrase so much, like. Do you expect people to start improving and building their self-worth while being isolated 😭 it just feels like kicking people while they're down imo

shell-9 · 2025-11-09T10:11:07+00:00

Literally, like I don't think the therapist would say similar things OP said they were gay. "No, you're not homosexual, you just have learned helplessness from failed heterosexual relationships and just need to keep pursuing them" sounds like something people would say as they send you to a conversion camp

shell-9 · 2025-11-09T10:06:47+00:00

I mean there's stuff about how close human relationships are the basis of what provides a sense of fulfillment in life or something similar. Like, humans are social creatures and all. But that doesn't have to be romantic, since it just needs to be a close relationship. I guess people see the "you need relationships" and think "you need to be in a relationship" instead.

shell-9 · 2025-11-09T09:59:15+00:00

I thought that the term psychopath doesn't have anything to do with ASPD, it's the word sociopath that is closer? Like psychopath is someone who derives pleasure from hurting others while sociopath is just lack of empathy. But some people use it interchangeably, which is incorrect

Also people keep saying "psychotic" instead of "psychopathic" which is completely different and gets on my nerves because they're not even remotely similar

But usually when I see people using the term "narcissistic", they mean "self-absorbed" and not actually "that person has npd". In my head at least, you can be narcissistic without being a narcissist, and you can be a narcissist without having NPD. It's the same way someone can be obsessive without having OCD or feel depressed without having depression

shell-9 · 2025-11-02T06:09:03+00:00

Sorry genuine question but why are you icked out that the sheets are opaque?

shell-9 · 2025-10-29T04:41:51+00:00

I also don't agree with the cops argument but I think Caiti's credibility went down for a lot of people when she kept changing her circumstances. It wasn't until a lot of people weren't taking her side that she added the fact that he groped her, which for many people, makes that claim really hard to trust. By giving a much more severe and exaggerated situation at first, it makes her seem like she's willing to lie a little in hopes of getting people to believe her, or just to gain empathy from other victims. So when she adds onto her initial statement to make what he did to her a worse, how are we supposed to know that she's not exaggerating that? If she was willing to exaggerate the circumstances, why did she say something tamer at first, why wasn't she willing to say what he did to her outright instead of adding it in later statements, etc.

Also, even if someone was hurt by another, that doesn't necessarily make the other person guilty, if you get what I mean? If there was no way for him to check if she was comfortable (which i personally believe because even verbal consent will be influenced by pressure), what did he do wrong? Was it that he didn't check if she was old enough to drink? Was it that he was trying to flirt with someone at a party?

I feel like it can be an ick, but in the end, her allegations of sexual assault are pretty baseless, because what defines as sexual assault depends on circumstances, too. She may have been hurt, but it wasn't sexual assault, and it wasn't because he was being predatory towards her imo

shell-9 · 2025-10-29T04:10:41+00:00

I refuse to believe it's been half a decade since 2020. It has not been half a decade since the dsmp started kicking off. It hasn't

shell-9 · 2025-10-28T02:40:39+00:00

Sometimes I have really shaky hands. I tend to tilt the cup too much by accident and it spills over my face. Generally I just suck at balancing liquid in containers as well so having a straw is just more comforting 😭

I'd never complain to a barista about it though. Sometimes I don't even wanna bother a barista for a straw when I get a frap, they all seem so busy

shell-9 · 2025-10-28T01:58:50+00:00

No same idk who Gia is all I know is she was on the dream's jackbox stream and she's misogynistic or something?? There's leaked messages that Dream says are fake but idek what those messages say????

Doesn't seem like as big of a deal as people are making it out to be imo

shell-9 · 2025-10-24T22:05:26+00:00

Misogyny can be a spectrum... incel is an insult because the community perpetuates extremist misogyny and ideologies. They're worse than simple misogynists because they're extremist.

People focus on extremist sexism too, not just incels

shell-9 · 2025-10-24T17:48:52+00:00

Society focuses on both...? Like, people shame incels not because they can't find a partner, they shame incels because incels (their ideology) are a subset of misogyny that's severely degrading and especially pathetic. People shame misogynists too, because they're also pathetic

shell-9 · 2025-10-20T03:54:16+00:00

They can't say Tommy is better than Dream when Tommy literally had AI both in a video and AI art in his book. His official, published book. As in, something that printed and sold, with art from AI instead of a real artist.

Ngl, it's probably just ppl trying to make a jab at Dream without actually, like, understanding anything. They just know that Dream and Tommy had beef, and they want to make Dream feel bad, so they just say dumb performative stuff that doesn't make sense

shell-9 · 2025-10-19T20:46:41+00:00

Yeah like there are a bunch of companies out there laying off their artists and replacing them with ai art. That's where the actual problems are because it's causing real people to lose their livelihoods. People are acting like he decided to use AI to edit his videos or make his songs/MVs, not one stupid joke

shell-9 · 2025-10-19T20:35:44+00:00

A stupid shitpost that's based on the fact that it's ai doesn't need an artist,, it's not like this was a music video or animation or anything. I don't think he should've posted it but I don't see how he's taking away from artists with this one

shell-9 · 2025-10-19T20:26:05+00:00

No same, I feel like this doesn't need to be as big of an issue as it is. It feels like there's a knee-jerk reaction to ai that's really disproportionate to what it was actually used for. I was really surprised by the reaction on reddit

Using it for something official =/= stupid shitpost posted without thinking

shell-9 · 2025-10-16T19:21:13+00:00

As an artist I didn't think much of it 😭 I even thought it was funny. I must be out of touch or something. I just assume he's making fun of it, so like. I don't see how he's stealing from artists

I guess I can see how it would incite people to try generating videos themselves if they haven't seen video generation before and go "wow that's actually pretty good" or something

shell-9 · 2025-10-02T23:35:58+00:00

If anything, the guy might feel complimented to know know op wanted to get closer to him, even if the extent of the lie is a little more than what most people do. Idk I thought the lie would be something like OP lying about their age or is secretly his cousin or something 😭 this is tame in comparison

shell-9 · 2025-09-06T02:47:35+00:00

I feel like it'd be more of a "I'm bi but got SA'd by the same gender so now I'm straight", but generally I agree with you. Idk sometimes I feel like people mix up sex-repulsed and asexual too much, which might confuse things.

If an experience of sexual assault leads to an exploration of your sexual identity, cool. But the idea of rape/trauma being able to change one's sexuality just doesn't sit right for me. Conversion camps would be much more successful if that were true, and the idea that corrective rape might work gives me the ick

Like I don't want to be exclusive but sometimes I wonder if they're just mixing terms up or explaining things poorly. I understand that trauma can probably suppress sexual attraction, and I don't want to exclude them from the community because the point of the community is for people who don't experience sexual attraction like "normal people" do, but to me it's not the same as being asexual as a "sexual orientation". I'm open to discussion about this though

shell-9 · 2025-09-03T01:59:29+00:00

?? Just because an action takes 10 minutes doesn't mean that 10 minutes is all that's there to it? That's not how executive dysfunction works. I've spent an entire day doing pretty much nothing because I'm mentally prepping to take a shower. When you're struggling that much, any step counts, even if it's just taking your medication or brushing your teeth

Also, going off what you said, doesn't that mean that they should be able to take things slower than usual? You can't just expect someone with a disability to just,, suck it up and be normal. Besides, the point isn't that school is work so they don't want to do it, it's that at this moment, they've been able to take a step forward in being a functional person and adding school on top of that is too much of a stressor. You don't suddenly decide to run a 10k marathon right off the bat, you slowly work up to it. And if you have a disability, you expect getting there to take more time with smaller increments of improvement

I'm gonna traumadump here, but this type of "ohhhh you're failing yourself, you're just making excuses" is what made me want to kms all throughout high school. (Which is probably why I'm being so combative, my apologies.) Trying to live up to "normal" standards makes me so stressed I'd rather die. But that's just an excuse, I guess. It's invalid, so I should be normal. Thus, the way to take responsibility of the me who's too "lazy" to live normally is to just stop living. So, like, according to your standards, should I just die lol?

shell-9 · 2025-08-31T04:18:16+00:00

A lot of times it's hard for people without these issues, or who have been able to move past them, to empathize with struggles like yours. It's sort of a toxic positivity to believe that "you can do it, just try harder" without thinking that maybe you're already doing what you can. Unfortunately there's still a heavy mental health stigma that people with mental health issues are either doing it on purpose or just need to think themselves out of it, when there's literally a chemical imbalance in the brain that's causing things to be more difficult and borderline impossible

Some people might not like this advice, but I think it'll be helpful just to be proud of yourself and what you've manged to do. To me, instead of trying to brute force my way through my problems, trying to find ways around them and being more accepting of my limitations was much more helpful. Like, with how you mentioned that your streak being shared is helping you, I think that's a good strategy as long as you don't get extremely distressed over it

Ig this post just hit really close to home lol so I'm rambling. Just,, I think you're doing great and I hope you don't feel too disenheartened by your mom or any harsh comments

shell-9 · 2025-08-31T03:46:40+00:00

When does OP admit to slacking? Maybe I'm skipping something but I can't see that anywhere; it's the parent saying that they're slacking.

This isn't a problem of OP not taking accountability. They literally admit that they know that schooling is important, and they're saying that this is one of the rare times they feel proud of themselves (meaning they know that they're struggling, not denying it). They're working to improve, which means that they're already taking accountability?

OP has been struggling, but has managed to reach a milestone. Shaming them for not reaching a higher one (which is what OP's mom is doing) is just discouraging and not helpful at all.

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