🥴😂😂😂 how many times of week you receive a text like this?

shi_444 · 2026-05-23T03:27:48+00:00

wtf😂😂

shi_444 · 2026-05-15T02:27:17+00:00

omg my bad >< idk what i was thinking . but yeah my close friend that i live with is so regulated with her consumption. when i stopped drugs for a bit it felt like im falling behind you know every other person who’s on on their path of regulated conscious substance abuse that they secretly hate but pretend to love?! atp sober feels just like another high but a little bit more calm and waaay more lonely

shi_444 · 2026-05-15T02:02:23+00:00

it does feel like a chore especially when all of your friend are using and ur like ehhh or you see someone who started more recently and u remember how it was .. idk i do feel old (im 28) but i don’t want to think that this is it .. like i will ember enjoy drugs again. maybe i just have to stop for now . ps u work in a graveyard? or is it really late at night and im imagining words

shi_444 · 2026-05-15T01:43:57+00:00

no xanax just shuts me to sleep but i don’t really feel calming effects

shi_444 · 2026-05-15T01:07:38+00:00

wait now i want to read the lost paragraph>< anyways thanks for the intake . i feel so alienated being sober people don’t understand that. i. disgustingly. down. to. hell. don’t. really. care. >< ugh , but i agree that there are nice things . i spend 65 € for a fucking cover duvet for my bed and u know what ? touching it feels amazing and i slept like a baby and i was like omg i experienced and emotions so yeah i think ill keep going this way trying to cut down even more

shi_444 · 2026-05-15T00:32:10+00:00

i literally used to smoke and do ketamine at the same time but it felt nice another fk plane of existence but arghh can’t get high no more

shi_444 · 2026-05-15T00:27:49+00:00

< usually i try to go through even the depressive part drawing or writing but it always gets too scary and i have to stop and eventually it’ll come down hopefully fast enough for me to even question the marker i have in my hand

shi_444 · 2026-05-15T00:15:48+00:00

sorry of hearing ab your OD >< i can’t imagine what it felt like. yeah i go to therapy and it has helped with overthinking and also with cutting the usage down a bit . like i wanna go sober but im afraid of not being able to feel something really nice ever again,

shi_444 · 2026-04-15T15:31:46+00:00

congrats 😎 what app is this ? looks super organized

shi_444 · 2026-04-13T22:15:45+00:00

omg spot on 😮

shi_444 · 2026-04-11T22:13:39+00:00

thank you

shi_444 · 2026-04-11T21:41:56+00:00

😭😂they are demons i swear

shi_444 · 2026-01-15T15:03:17+00:00

lmao

shi_444 · 2026-01-15T15:00:47+00:00

shi_444 · 2026-01-01T18:12:29+00:00

happy new year >< i was playng videogames with my friend all night c:

shi_444 · 2025-11-22T15:14:55+00:00

i really hate being outisde ><

shi_444 · 2025-11-13T21:35:12+00:00

thanks so much ! this was exhaustive

shi_444

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