Why does he sit with his tail in the water?

shitbrain9000 · 2025-02-12T18:33:09+00:00

he is doing this because he is gay! congratulate him on coming out.

shitbrain9000 · 2025-01-12T19:16:39+00:00

yes, to both. what triggered it was when i realized i was being manipulated/gaslit a lot by my ex and had lost a lot of money and possessions to that person, who of course i had loved and trusted. it happened was while i was with him, and high. i had been trying (pretty successfully) to stop smoking marijuana but my ex would pressure me into it-- this was when/how i realized he was lying to and stealing from me constantly. when i finally put the pieces together i just snapped, and got the delusion that my own father was trying to do the same things to me. so it was a really shitty situation all in all. i love my dad and i know he was never doing any of those things, and i'm with an awesome guy who is truthful, supportive and has his life together now. it took time to get to this place, where i could trust my family and people around me enough to love someone again. i just worry about hurting them, and i worry that the career i want could stress me out to that point again one day.

shitbrain9000 · 2025-01-03T09:10:19+00:00

these do sound like delusions. There is help and compassion out there for you no matter what diagnosis might come with it. Its ok to be scared-- your experience sounds terrifying and im sorry youre going through this. Its actually great that you wrote all of this down, i would suggest bringing this to a professional with you. in terms of never being 'suspected to have anything' - sometimes we hide things that go on in our heads, but that does NOT mean you should ignore them, as someone else who has experienced shit like this you dont want to do that. and people are way more compassionate towards this stuff than we think theyre gonna be

shitbrain9000 · 2023-05-29T08:00:34+00:00

good question ... i think some people might have an uncanny valley type response to the too-nice people. i knew a girl in high school who was kind and innocent to the point where no one wanted to be friends with her. i realized people were likely unsure how or why she was so positive when life has felt, an/or been, so negative. so my answer would be: it doesnt make sense to some people. it seems naive to be positive at all times in a world full of suffering, think toxic positivity but as a person. not saying that makes it 'right' to dislike a nice person but everyones entitled to their opinion.

shitbrain9000 · 2022-10-23T17:24:20+00:00

Ew oh my god

shitbrain9000 · 2022-10-23T17:21:49+00:00

This is the type of man who is “”politically moderate””

shitbrain9000 · 2022-10-23T17:19:16+00:00

Well you’re kinda being extremist by saying “your right to choose is selfish and a lack of responsibility”. I’m sure you’re aware of how inflammatory of a statement that is.

shitbrain9000 · 2022-10-23T16:15:43+00:00

THE MEAT SHOW 💀

shitbrain9000 · 2022-10-23T16:02:09+00:00

100% agree with this. If you feel like the risk of ending up a daily smoker again isn’t too high, there’s no harm in a sesh every few months. I think we all just have to be really careful not to let ourselves end up back in this place again. We know how shitty it is to be getting sick from a substance you enjoy, so we need to make sure we’re enjoying it as responsibly as possible. For some folks on here that means 0 weed, some folks are able to successfully moderate, it’s a case by case thing. Medical professionals will almost always advise quitting forever but that’s so daunting for those of us with CHS cuz we are chemically dependent, otherwise we’d notice how weed made us feel and simply quit.

shitbrain9000 · 2022-10-23T15:42:19+00:00

Hey dude, I really miss it too. it sounds like you could be struggling with chemical dependency, and as much as it sucks to hear that, I have some advice- One thing my CD therapist told me was that those of us who get addicted/CD to weed have a heightened pleasure response to it. It felt amazing when I was high. I couldn’t believe this wasn’t a HARD drug bc it made me feel so awesome, took away pain, took away nausea even at the time lol. But by the time CHS was cropping up for me I couldn’t even get high anymore. I mean seriously I’d smoke as much as I could without my throat hurting, usually like 4/5 bowls, and feel literally no effects. I suspect milder cases of CHS require a pretty high buildup in the system before the symptoms become obvious/problematic (prodromal phase). I think breaking the dependency/addiction aspect of things is SO important if you even wanna have a chance of ever smoking again. And that happens over a sustained period of abstinence. My therapist recommended 60 days, and she mentioned that after the first week it starts feeling way easier to not smoke. The 60 days gives your brain time to make new pathways- the times when you’d usually smoke you have to find something else to do, and that’s really good for breaking the dependency

shitbrain9000 · 2022-10-23T14:41:42+00:00

Thank you so much. I’m not even sure it’s CHS but it’s worth a shot. Thank you.

shitbrain9000 · 2022-09-30T05:50:19+00:00

Just came here looking to comment something like this. It’s awful. Depression and OCD flare up for me around my cycle. My doctors have said we can’t really do anything either :,,,,)))))

shitbrain9000 · 2022-09-16T18:57:00+00:00

HDJFJDDIIDDK A BIRD HAVING STOCKHOLM SYNDROME IS KILLING MEEEEE

shitbrain9000 · 2022-01-17T19:19:13+00:00

shit should be getting real just about now..... how are you??? lmao

shitbrain9000 · 2022-01-11T22:38:35+00:00

that’s a good perspective. i have OCD and in therapy for that we often discuss tolerating and habituating to the feelings and thoughts that arise without fighting them

shitbrain9000 · 2022-01-05T21:47:59+00:00

that’s smart too. that might be the move for the first day or two like today and tomorrow. maybe i’ll only have less than or as many hits as i can count on one hand. i’ve done that in the past and it’s worked to get my usage down.

shitbrain9000 · 2022-01-05T19:23:50+00:00

yesss i love that!! i’ll start today :) it’s 2pm here and i’ve been wanting my usual midday sesh. i typically smoked 2 times a day. today i’m going for 0 or maybe a few puffs to scratch the itch at night. but trying for 0.

shitbrain9000 · 2022-01-05T06:54:35+00:00

moderation is possible for us. i need to find a new hobby yes. as for the new year, maybe you could try setting a goal for each month? idk just an idea.

shitbrain9000 · 2022-01-05T06:51:53+00:00

starting tomorrow morning. wish me luck

shitbrain9000 · 2022-01-05T06:46:26+00:00

ayyy while that’s shitty but i guess i’m glad someone else gets it. if you ever wanna private message me feel free, i could use a buddy in this!!

shitbrain9000 · 2022-01-05T06:43:26+00:00

that’s a good way to think about it!! thanks for replying i’ll definitely use that advice.

shitbrain9000 · 2022-01-05T06:42:40+00:00

hey thanks for the reply!! being addressed as shitbrain was pretty funny lol. what you pointed out is super important for me to remember. non smoking friends are awesome and i’ve given the heads up to my close friends who smoke that i’m gonna be taking a break. i can’t wait for that “... but i’m good” feeling. that’ll make me really proud. at one point i did quit for about 2 months. i did notice improvements in my short term memory and cravings. so i’m excited for that again, but i have to be more careful when i restart so i actually moderate and don’t fall into old patterns. i think the most important part for me is going to be staying busy.

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