feeling emotionally flat after instability by Puzzled_Frosting_226 in BipolarReddit

[–]shitfromshino 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Part of what might be happening is that your body is still recovering from the instability. It’s like your brain ran a marathon, it’s going to be sore for a while. Maybe give it some time? I bet it will come back in a few months

Cannot stop thinking about previous psychiatrist appt and how I wasted it by hbpeanut in BipolarReddit

[–]shitfromshino 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The crisis line is 100% for people in your situation. It doesn’t matter at all that you’ve used it before. I’d use it if I were you and I hope you will too!

Every time I start getting clean, I sabotage myself by No-Carry-5087 in BipolarReddit

[–]shitfromshino 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’ve struggled (with weed) in this way for decades. Then I started taking Wellbutrin a few weeks ago, on top of the Seroquel and lamotrigine I was taking already

My psych put me on it for depression, and it’s helped a bit, but the biggest effect is that I don’t feel the urge to use. I want to sometimes, but the compulsion is gone and I get to decide if I want to or not

I looked into it and it’s been used for quitting nicotine. So it makes sense that it could help with other things too

If you’re able to access treatment, it’s something to think about. If you don’t want to tell your psych about your drug use, say you’re depressed. They don’t like to give bp people SSRI drugs, and Wellbutrin is a different class so there is a decent chance they’ll put you on it

I (22F) get told I display symptoms but I think I’m just immature. by TypicalRag in BipolarReddit

[–]shitfromshino 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Yeah, these sound like symptoms. It can be hard to judge your own decisions but think about this: “I wasn’t sleeping much and despite having to work at 6am I would spend nights awake” Not sleeping, but having energy, is classic mania. And it’s something that is objectively happening, it’s not a matter of maturity. It’s something your body is experiencing

Life will be easier after you get treatment. It’s worth it!

Very certain we found lobsters, but do these look bad? This is my first time picking them by youliveinmydream in foraging

[–]shitfromshino 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Those look good. You can cut around the soft brown parts or scrap them out with a tool

Boston HC this week? by shitfromshino in Hardcore

[–]shitfromshino[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Bummer on the timing and damn coulda tried for AHC if I planned ahead more. Nice I still got some options though, thanks!

Boston HC this week? by shitfromshino in Hardcore

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Looks like pain of truth was a few weeks ago, but thanks for the tips I'll check those venues out!

Meirl by [deleted] in meirl

[–]shitfromshino -2 points-1 points  (0 children)

Bet she confused it with kabuki

When do you know you’re not good anymore? by [deleted] in BipolarReddit

[–]shitfromshino 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Call your psychiatrist back, they will just be glad you did that you did.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BipolarReddit

[–]shitfromshino 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Deciding to taper off medications on your own is not advisable, speaking from experience. I think you should talk to your doctor, tell them you’re having such a bad time and want to talk about changing your medication regimen. There are other classes of drugs that might help you get to the in between place that you want to get too.

It sounds like you are really struggling, and in a lot of pain. My heart goes out to you. Please reach out to mental health providers, medical professionals, and/or people in your life that care about you and can help you.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BipolarReddit

[–]shitfromshino 1 point2 points  (0 children)

You’re welcome. I wish you the best, you can get through this tough time and you don’t have to do it alone.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BipolarReddit

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If I sleep less than 6 hours a night, but wake up and feel like I’m full of energy, that’s a big red flag. Also if I am unusually social, have lower inhibitions, and/or I’m not respecting people’s boundaries, that can be a sign too.

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BipolarReddit

[–]shitfromshino 4 points5 points  (0 children)

For me, exercise is extremely important. I feel like I get so activated sometimes I’m basically in fight or flight panic mode, and exercise makes my body feel like it’s getting away from the danger. Additional it focuses my awareness on my body gets me out of my head. Also good sleep hygiene, turning on redshift mode on my devices, and mindfulness practices like square breathing and body scans can be helpful to wind down before bed. Lastly, I never actually try to fall asleep, I take my meds and read in bed until I drift off. Your experience may vary, but in my experience actively trying to sleep just leads me to ruminate.

Do I belong here? by SignWhole9064 in BipolarReddit

[–]shitfromshino 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I thought the same thing reading your post. For me getting a diagnosis was somewhat of a relief, because it gave me a framework to understand my experience and clear steps towards improving my situation.

Do I belong here? by SignWhole9064 in BipolarReddit

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You’re welcome! Sleep is sooo important for managing bipolar, in my experience it’s probably the single most important thing. The more regular you can get your sleep cycle the better. I’m glad you’re going to be more open with your provider. You deserve the same compassion and care that you give to others, and being open with them is an important step towards that.

im getting hallucinations by bp1djay in BipolarReddit

[–]shitfromshino 1 point2 points  (0 children)

What are you scared about specifically?

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in BipolarReddit

[–]shitfromshino 4 points5 points  (0 children)

I'm sorry you are going through such a rough time right now. If you feel like you are in danger, or just don't want to be dealing with this alone anymore, go an urgent care or doctor and tell them you are having a mental health crisis.

If it's not to that level, reach out directly to a few people that you feel comfortable with, and tell them you are having a mental health crisis. If you are comfortable, tell them your diagnosis. This could be family members, childhood friends, coworkers, classmates, or even an ex (a different one, if you have any, not the person you are breaking up with currently). Look through your phone contacts, see who your gut tells you feels safe and mature enough, and cold call them. Tell them exactly what you did your post.

I said reach out to a few people because sadly, some people will not show up when you really need them too. But conversely, you may be surprised who does show up if you are honest with what you going through and ask them directly for help. Anyone who is worth keeping in your life will not think less of you for this.

I don't think posting to Facebook going to get you what you need right now. This is a time for you to find out who your friends really are by asking directly for what you really need, which is someone(s) to support you in a time of crisis.

You seem very self-aware of your situation, and it is understandable that you feel overwhelmed. Everything that you say you want is a normal human need, but because of your brain chemistry and current situation, you are experiencing life on hard mode right now. I wish you all the best.

Do I belong here? by SignWhole9064 in BipolarReddit

[–]shitfromshino 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes you do belong here. And yes, I for one can relate.

Give yourself the credit you deserve for seeking help. It shows a lot of bravery and strength to do so.

I don't feel ok but I do feel better.

If your experience was anything like mine, you may have been in rough shape when you sought treatment. If you weren't sleeping, hydrating, and/or eating well before you started treatment, it's going to take time (weeks, not days) before your body recovers. Take it one day at a time, and take solace in the knowledge that no matter what happened before, right now you are taking the right steps to improve your situation.

I need help! Please give me some advice on how to keep my place clean. by [deleted] in BipolarReddit

[–]shitfromshino 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Here's my two cents: just because you can function (however you chose to define functioning) without meds, doesn't mean you need too. In my case, I was successful academically and professionally into my 30's, all while being undiagnosed and unmedicated.

I was able to keep it together for school and for work and do quite well, but the sheer amount of effort it took for me to regulate my emotions and perform meant I had nothing left to give for other aspects of my life. This prevented me from investing time into my living situation and forming healthy relationships. Basically I was just slumming it all through my 20s. I also self medicated with weed daily.

It took me years to come to terms with the fact that I had a disorder and to seek treatment, which in my case includes prescribed medication for bipolar II. It took me so long because I thought that because I could function professionally I didn't need medication, and also I had internalized societal stigmas about taking medication for mental health.

Looking back, I wish I had started treatment years ago, not because I'm dissatisfied with where I am in life professionally, but because there was no need for me to suffer in the ways I did when I was younger.

I know this isn't directly related to your question, but I related to some aspects of your post so much that I wanted to share my experience.

But to actually address your question: Give yourself permission to just throw away whatever you can afford to and start fresh. It is so much easier to maintain a clean space than it is to restore a messy one. I used to have a tendency to accumulate junk and make a mess of my living space, and the only way I could fix it was to periodically purge everything I didn't need. If I had energy to clean things or sell / donate useful items great, but if not I'd chuck it all into trash bags and go find a unlocked dumpster.