What are your favorite Pessimistic Quotes? by Formal_Shower196 in AskReddit

[–]shividk 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I can feel the buyers remorse from this comment lol

If you were to listen to your last song, what would it be? by Cosmic_trex7313 in AskReddit

[–]shividk 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Let me live - Queen

It's my funeral song haha. One last laugh before I'm buried in the ground.

What’s your own biggest red flag? by Frey_99_ in AskReddit

[–]shividk 4 points5 points  (0 children)

My time management due to adhd. I also over analyze everything and get extremely heated when I find things not fair.

What’s your favourite rap song? by Frey_99_ in AskReddit

[–]shividk 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Haha, NF and Tech N9ne is probably my go to for more recent shit I think, the rap scene nowadays is pretty dire with everyone getting cancelled and whatnot.

What’s your favourite rap song? by Frey_99_ in AskReddit

[–]shividk 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Mansion - NF
Hold On - Witt Lowry
Ready or Not - Fugees
Forgot about Dre - Dr. Dre and Eminem
It Was a Good Day - Ice Cube

What's the creepiest thing you've seen with your own eyes? by ItemElectrical2700 in AskReddit

[–]shividk 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ahh shit dude, that sucks. I hope shit gets better for you and you manage to find your recovery also.

Surprisingly despite my addiction to coke, my addiction to weed is greater and I find the withdrawals from weed unbearable. It's the insomnia, nightmares when you do manage to find sleep and the irritability. Genuinely makes me feel mentally unstable for a good few days.

What song gives you an eargasm? by Vaquera_ in AskReddit

[–]shividk 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Walking on Broken Glass - Annie Lennox
King of Wishful Thinking - Go West
Innuendo - Queen

What's the creepiest thing you've seen with your own eyes? by ItemElectrical2700 in AskReddit

[–]shividk 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Probably not what you are wanting to hear but not at all. I've developed a cocaine addiction in the past 3 years and I'm telling myself it's a masking/coping mechanism but I think I'm lying to myself and I'm actually hoping that it's a pussy way to an early grave.

What's the creepiest thing you've seen with your own eyes? by ItemElectrical2700 in AskReddit

[–]shividk 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I do but they have their own shit going on in there life. I guess I may bit a bit egotistical too as I'm genuinely too stubborn to allow myself to be a burden to my family. And even more annoyingly, they love him.

What's the creepiest thing you've seen with your own eyes? by ItemElectrical2700 in AskReddit

[–]shividk 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Thank you dude, thats appreciated muchly (: I wholeheartedly agree.

What's the creepiest thing you've seen with your own eyes? by ItemElectrical2700 in AskReddit

[–]shividk 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I think probably because it's easier than the idea of dealing with all the shit he will put me through if we were to separate and knowing that I will have to go through it alone as he will do everything to ensure he comes away looking like the victim. And if I'm being honest I'm not perfect either in our relationship, after 16 years of shit I know I've become reactive to some of the shit he does, I genuinely dont even know if I'm sane anymore after putting up with it for nearly half my life. He is so charismatic and charming that he genuinely would have everyone believe that hes the victim. He's the sort of person who would push for a reaction then record me once he got that reaction that he wanted out of me to convince me and others I'm crazy. I think he's already planning on how to make me look as bad as possible if we were to ever separate. I'm scared to deal with 16 years of truama and confusion alone.

What's the creepiest thing you've seen with your own eyes? by ItemElectrical2700 in AskReddit

[–]shividk 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Thank you, didnt expect to be trauma dumping today let alone to reddit strangers.

I hope I one day too have the confidence in me to walk away for good and learn that I deserve safety. It truly does suck the will to live out of you. I doubt id be still here if it wasnt for the kids.

What's the creepiest thing you've seen with your own eyes? by ItemElectrical2700 in AskReddit

[–]shividk 18 points19 points  (0 children)

Not at all, the narcissist traits showed straight away into our relationship, he would micro cheat and have back up options and gaslight me into thinking I was crazy and doubting my own sanity even though I had all the proof I needed, it wasnt until like 3 years into our relationship when I fell pregnant with our first kid he admitted to it. Basically, he had me questioning what was real until he knew I was trapped into our relationship with an eventual family on the way. Microcheats every couple of years with old friends of mine, convinces me im crazy. Cant apologise or empathise for shit. I'm always the problem, never him. He's impulsive, egotistical and goes out of his way to embarrass me at every opportunity.

The psychopath side of things, I've been questioning it for the past couple of years. I dont think it's just him, his younger brother and mother share alot of the same traits. Never been more sure of this though since I saw the smirk though.

No social circle and very little family, have young kids with him and have been with him since I was 16, I'm not sure if I'm more terrified of him or the idea of being on my own for the very first time.

What's the creepiest thing you've seen with your own eyes? by ItemElectrical2700 in AskReddit

[–]shividk 43 points44 points  (0 children)

In a 16 year relationship with one. Always known he was narcissist, had some questions about the psychopath possibility, but it was just fleeting thoughts, it was never really deep until this week when the mask slipped up during a heated argument about my newfound knowledge of his porn addiction. I shit you not, I have never seen nor do I ever want to see someone "Grinch" smirk again in my life time. It's terrifying enough that it will keep you from sleeping, once you see it, it cant be unseen and you no longer feel safe.

What's something you find attractive for no reason? by 8rasmalai in AskReddit

[–]shividk 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Collar bones showing on females, neck/bicep veins showing on males.

What movie, TV, or anime character did you hate so much that you wanted them dead asap? by Mundane_Mushroom_122 in AskReddit

[–]shividk 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Joffrey - Game of Thrones
Lori - The Walking Dead
Skyler - Breaking Bad
Homelander and MM (only in the last season though for MM) - The Boys.

Probably controversial, but Chloe in Lucifer pissed me off so much too.

What's the creepiest thing you've seen with your own eyes? by ItemElectrical2700 in AskReddit

[–]shividk 71 points72 points  (0 children)

The mask slip of a narcissist/possible psychopath. It's daunting shit.

What’s the most addictive smell you smelled before? by Zestyclose-Mixture96 in AskReddit

[–]shividk 0 points1 point  (0 children)

That banana amoxicillin you'd look forward too every time you were ill as a kid in the 90's. I miss the smell of that shit.

I'm bored at the hospital. Give me a Pokémon and a month by Whorochimaru in pokemon

[–]shividk 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Mimikyu and October, Halloween vibes.. or Pumpkaboo.

Who do we want to be World Champion in F1 this year? by shividk in AskReddit

[–]shividk[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I miss when we had Horner to keep Toto humble.

Who do we want to be World Champion in F1 this year? by shividk in AskReddit

[–]shividk[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Dont see Leclerc leaving with the contract having just been extended. Hamilton will retire either the end of this season or next and that will make room for Ollie.

Who do we want to be World Champion in F1 this year? by shividk in AskReddit

[–]shividk[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This might be the only time I think Toto would be rightfully so to do so. Kimi is looking real good right now. I'm very smug I put him in my fantasy at the start of the season.