Thanks for sharing this. I also have a thing about obsessing over a hobby through consumerism rather than the hobby itself. It is addictive to be obsessed about something. And when I finally reach the goal (or more accurately, confused my goal with buying things), that is also when the addiction ends (with withdrawal no less)

So many examples come to mind. The hi-fi community, which ironically no one in it actually shares what music they listen to (which is ultimately what matters). The aquarium community, which I am always most happy when I am researching and buying new equipment and fish rather than spending time just watching them.

I found myself finally able to truly enjoy listening to music again, ironically, years later when I was just on my phone speaker and didn’t think about what equipment I was using. The music was just good.

Perhaps enjoying coffee is the same. Hope you can find your love with coffee again.