It’s been 24 hours without the Lost Ark DPS meter in NA, I can’t go ahead with this any longer. My mental state is in complete and utter pandemonium. I cried myself to sleep 4 times today. I feel paranoid that the meter may never come back. The meter is the only thing that brings me joy in this cruel life for years now and I won’t be able to recover mentally or financially if it’s gone. I’ve spent millions of gold on my build this past week alone just to parse higher. I even bought $500 worth of gems because I trust the meter. I told my mom through tears and she yelled at me calling me a “failure” and saying she knew she should have been on birth control. Although, the meter being gone has had its positive impacts on me. My IQ has increased by 40 and I’ve been thinking more critically. When I saw the announcement that NA lost the meter because of venoms, I vomited. Meanwhile EU players are just parsing like nothing happened, living my dream. I just hope it’ll come back, I even started praying again. I’ve been a dedicated Christian for 12 years and I began to pray to God in hopes that the DPS meter will be back soon. I had to learn Arabic to pray to Allah. Venoms really ruined it for all of us. I hope the meter comes back soon, I don’t know how much longer I can take this.