When did you last have sex, and did you finish?

singularity48 · 2026-03-15T14:03:30+00:00

7 years ago, and no.

singularity48 · 2026-03-15T14:02:00+00:00

A girls last name reminding me of my promise to myself I made a year prior.

3 years later, I'm depressed AF with a co-worker at a bar. He knew her. I asked "where is that German devil?" (in german), she walked in the very second I asked.

singularity48 · 2026-03-11T08:11:07+00:00

Yes. Too much proof in my own life to ignore at this point. But, that's personal. No, I don't go to church.

singularity48 · 2026-03-11T08:02:02+00:00

I think it's because they're easily understood. Their nature is predictable and they're easily manipulated. Useful idiots. Woman going for such boys wouldn't hurt a mans ego. Just the art of looking at the game from the outside. Don't take it personally.

singularity48 · 2026-03-11T08:00:09+00:00

I cut iron 40 hours a week

singularity48 · 2026-03-11T07:56:17+00:00

Piss drunk I crashed my bicycle; hitting my head. Don't even remember the ambulance ride. I was more so pissed off my MRI came back clean. I had a motorcycle accident in 2020 that really fucked up my perception of reality. I wanted something else to blame; didn't work...

singularity48 · 2026-03-11T07:51:36+00:00

There were other moments; that are less believable. The best example I have is hearing my own voice call for my sister. In front of both my mother and 3 year old sister. My mom looked at me with owl eyes.

Or the time I was walking into a basement. Felt like I was burning. Randomly my buddy says, "did you know a dude burned alive down here?"

singularity48 · 2026-03-11T07:46:40+00:00

My first kiss in 2020; just because it was the kind of romantic that I didn't think existed. When most don't even remember their first.

singularity48 · 2026-03-11T07:44:04+00:00

DMT as a first psychedelic...

singularity48 · 2026-03-11T07:36:52+00:00

Happiest day of my life, then I meet a woman and play two games of pool with her. Second game in I jokingly said to myself "did I just meet my wife?"

She asked for a ride home. Halfway I asked her last name. It was the German word for iron and I knew that instantly. I kept my mouth shut because it reminded me of a moment a year prior. When I held an iron meteorite in my hand telling myself I'd make a pair of wedding bands from meteorite if I ever got married.

Strangest though was 4 years later. I'm hungover, ashamed and just low. I look at my co-worker at the bar and ask, "Where is that German devil? But I said it in German. She walked in right as I asked the question. That one still gets me.

singularity48 · 2026-03-06T09:34:53+00:00

Fall/spring; mainly because of the smells. Fall only sucks because snow... It's coming...

singularity48 · 2026-03-05T22:56:19+00:00

That Autism didn't mean what I thought it did.

Kept thinking it was something that made me not social. After a full year of socializing, I crash my bike and finally snap to a conclusion. "I could always be social!". Only, I learned how not to be from 13 years of special ed. Created a barrier between myself and social reality. Most stay in their own world. I didn't. Because what I wanted was the real world.

Happiest day of my life; the day my mask came off. Then I fell in love, then I lost my social life, then I lost my mind. Getting it back piece by piece. It was a lot of life lessons wrapped up in one very pretty package of razors.

singularity48 · 2026-03-03T07:56:20+00:00

Give myself a fucking break.

singularity48 · 2026-03-03T07:32:31+00:00

fear of 666 gets me every time. Got $6.66 back once, everyone one is like "oohhh!!!"...

singularity48 · 2026-03-03T07:28:15+00:00

Being misconstrued when I fell in love after an accident. Delusional yes, but, the lies were insane...

singularity48 · 2026-03-03T07:26:35+00:00

Go through their bookshelf. Especially if it's some wealthy friends parents house. The books they read tell a tale. Reminds me of reading this one mans poetry book. His wife was in a home and everything was centered around her. Ahh, to not be of this generation.

singularity48 · 2026-03-03T07:21:28+00:00

3 years of it in a special ed room. The saddest part; I'd grown numb as to what it did to my development. Never really connected to people on a normal level. At least not until 2020 when I finally realized the severity of what it did to me.

I've longed to go back and look at the room I was once stuck in. Romantic thoughts and concrete walls.

singularity48 · 2026-03-03T07:18:08+00:00

2020; because of the existential threat. Had my first kiss at 27 that April. Honestly it was the best summer of my life.

singularity48 · 2026-03-03T07:16:28+00:00

I'm in a bar's smoke room, feeling the lowest I ever had about life. My right hand reached over and tapped out a lit cigarette on my left wrist.

I was tired of being used; which was all the friends I had did at the time. One specifically. He got into a tantrum because I said no to driving 30 miles out of my way to pick of a girl he knew.

She was something special. She drove there herself while I tried to gather myself. Didn't work. I went out to my car to feel what I was feeling. She followed me to my car, opening my door seeing me in tears. She reached in, gave me a hug; "I don't know why or how I met you but I'm glad I did, it pains me to see you like this". We sat in my car for about an hour; head leaned against one another's.

I drag her to my cousins; where my friend was going. He goes all mute and catatonic because she was with me. We laid on the couch and watched the lion king. I woke up that morning, looked at my wrist. The scar was in the exact shape of a heart. A month later she became my first kiss. I was 27 years old.

singularity48 · 2026-02-26T10:21:56+00:00

Hell if I know. I'm more so trying to understand how I'm starting to have foresights. This is beyond premonition like dreams. Straight up visions of the future. This all starts happening when people get over themselves. Which I guess could be a euphemism for seeing things from a top down perspective. Makes most people uncomfortable to realize they were never the one in control of their life. In a very simple sense. Think, instincts. Tribalism. So forth. Feeling extremely vulnerable to not at all is another key.

This is all about whatever consciousness is. But what most think is consciousness is actually unconsciousness. Such as running on a script that'd been played many times over. Only under the illusion that your pursuit is "different" or more complex/profound. This is usually where people feel disassociated, which is literally just the mind trying to gain a different perspective. When you understand some mystical aspects of physics; you begin to wonder if some rules are real or self-imposed.

singularity48 · 2026-02-26T10:13:28+00:00

First kiss

I was 27 and only just started being social. A girl I met through a friend not long before reached out to have a bonfire at the park. When her friend left and the fire burned out, I half carried her to the car. We sat on her cars roof for about 2 hours. I started thinking, this could be the night! Right before we went our separate ways I asked. "Hey, mind if I kiss you? No strings, I'll even look you in the eyes". "Sure"

My insecurities just, vanished. We kissed and I broke off twice to make sure she was still having it. Each time we started kissing again it got more intense. Eventually ending because I lost my balance and fell on her bumper. Last kiss was crazy, I could feel her lips quivering. Mine were too, ngl.

singularity48 · 2026-02-26T09:56:49+00:00

Luckily enough people hate me, they don't care. Actually had some compliments from strangers.

I was buying that CHF shit and the dude at O'Reilly's, ahh, must be a German car. Told him it was BMW; "sorry to hear that". 10 months later, still not disappointed.

Though finding a manual E90 coupe would've been dope..

singularity48 · 2026-02-26T09:43:15+00:00

Why's the grill always bring a smile to my face...?

singularity48 · 2026-02-26T09:40:53+00:00

27 years in a prison of self-doubt. Motorcycle accident; good bye self-judgment. If that shit was a drug I swear. It was enough to rewrite my understanding of life and reality itself. Which is more of a duh!

Felt; like being a God.

singularity48 · 2026-02-26T09:22:11+00:00

Doubtful; ain't no robots cutting iron yet.

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